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Stupid question if I'm asking it I suppose. I hate my life, I hate myself to the point I've cut it into my stomach. I just f******* hate how I feel. But I'm responsible for my daughter in laws dog today so I can't leave him all day. I just feel empty , I don't want to go back into hospital. I just don't know anything anymore.
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tina89895
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jude65855 tina89895
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You're not completely empty or you wouldn't have bothered writing to this forum: please take care of yourself!
Andre247 tina89895
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h9000 tina89895
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tina89895 h9000
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No I am in the UK, Scotland.
I ended taking the dog out for a long walk with a friend. So reasonable for the rest of the day sort of. I have been very irrational again ok one minute then raging the next. Tried contacted CPN yesterday but no reply back, so went into another rage, ended up cutting the word cut into my arm, reason why I have no idea?? Seeing bereavement councillor today hope I don't loose the plot with her as she is such a lovely lady. CPN tomorrow, GP the next then psychiatrist the next so I am getting loads of support but I just can't seem to feel right just seem to be getting more and more rages sometimes for no reason at all.
I can't even recall the cutting into my stomach but it is a good reminder as it says "I Hate me". Waht a stupid thing to do but don't really remember doing it, what I have become???
h9000 tina89895
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tina89895 h9000
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Tina x
jude65855 tina89895
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tina89895 jude65855
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jude65855 tina89895
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My comment about alcohol was based on a few comments you've made about it, I wasn't judging you at all.
tina89895 jude65855
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Not a good morning woke dreaming, nightmare, got to CPN appointment, my CPN has phoned in sick saw someone else who I have never met before, had a general chat and thats it couldn't ask the questions that I had planned and what was discussed between my cpn & with the psychiatrist for their plans, she doesn't know me and I felt uncomfortable. Now I need to do something to calm down, stupid i know but I think I';m getting somewhere then something comes along and upsets the progress or is it just me being over sensitive.
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