So scared of als/mnd
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I know i keep posting, but its gotten to the point where im telling people that im dying and that theres no point in doing things anymore. Such as college, relationships and going out. Im convinced i have some kind of MND. My arm and leg doesnt feel right, like sometimes tight, or sometimes achy and pretty useless plus i have muscle twitches most of the time. I have a hospital appointment on the 12th and i really do not want tp go because i know they are going to say i have some neurological problem. And that its going to kill me. Everyone keeps saying there is nothing wrong but they do not know how i feel everyday. Im only 16 i just want my life back.
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carole28488 emily52713
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el_shiz emily52713
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athol91131 emily52713
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Aspinan emily52713
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I know that you will be given the all clear by the hospital but until you address your health anxiety which includes accepting you have the condition then you will struggle to get out of this cycle of irrational thinking over your health.
Im sorry if I sound brutal but it's not my intention and as an anxiety sufferer myself I know how horrible it can be but my "diagnosis" is that once you have your health anxiety under YOUR control you will be able to live your life again without fear.
I suggested keeping a diary if you recall and wonder whether you have made a start?
it involved writing down the symptoms and what you thought it would be "worse case scenario" what you thought was going to happen, then review it a werk or so later or after you received an all clear and ask yourself was it heakth anxiety... If it was put a BIG TICK next to health anxiety.
Before you can make a start you need to believe and accept you have health anxiety.
Would you be able to tell us if you believe that you have or not, there is no wrong or right answer btw and nobody will judge you in anyway petal.
nxx
emily52713 Aspinan
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Aspinan emily52713
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If you hadn't read the book or your step dad didn't scare you do you think you would be thinking this way?
The good news is that you can be treated for this and with CBT etc you will get better.
Your mum isn't supportive because she doesn't understand health anxiety, print her something she can read about it and tell her that this is what you have and the effect of the condition is that you convince yourself that you have illnesses you don't have but in your mind due to the illness you cannot shake it off. It is a recognised psychological illness so on one hand she is right that what you think you have you don't but she isn't when it comes to thinking there is nothing wrong with you.. You do have a medical condition.
You can't get better on your own so you need support from a psychiatrist, talking therapy and medication for anxiety disorders.
unfortunately the books and graveyards have triggered your normal anxiety levels above what you can cope with and the result is that everything has become blown out of proportion and the heightened anxiety has latched onto your health and is sucking it all in.
You could say that everytime you get a notion that you have a desease that it's down to your health anxiety but I know this won't stop you thinking your ill which is why you need the help from a professional.
Would you be able to tell us what help your getting medically?
Btw... Your stepdad was reading something that isn't factual, nobody can read or see the future.
Neil
emily52713 Aspinan
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I also remember just sitting there eating y dinner then all of a sudden id get really warm and panic thinking i was dying, then id have panic attacks at night. But now because i dont have it makes me think its something way more serious which is why ive been through so many diseases,then after realising that i do not have a brain tumour as ive had 2 eye tests i latched onto something else to replace that. I just hope going to hospital will solve all of this.
erika22 emily52713
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Aspinan emily52713
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The Symptoms you had at the dinner was typical anxiety symptoms, you say you don't have those symptoms now or was this just the panic attacks, either way the symptoms are there they are just different in so much as the symptoms are manifesting in your belief that you have a serious illness, you probably do have other symptoms which includes those tingling and numbness feelings but your putting them down to the illness you think you have.
You can't make your mum understand you but I would print some information off about health anxiety and ask her to read it.
In the mean time chase up your CBT and get an appointment, you can send an email to your Drs surgery telling them that you've had an assessment but not heard anything and can they chase it and let you know what's happening asap. N