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No! I've heard this my whole life! When I was raped by my brothers, beat and almost killed by my ex husband. Cheated and hurt in so many ways by my husband now. When I finally fell in love with a man, I screwed him over because life had made me an ugly person! I was afraid to trust so I cheated first! It's so much more complicated than that but he left. He hates me and wants nothing to do with me. I've decided to go back to my husband because I don't care about me anymore. I'm doing it for the boys we have together but pray for a heart attack everyday. It's the truth but I pretend to everyone I'm okay but feel dead. I am not feeling sorry for myself...I used to. I'm just so darn angry! What the heck did I do to have such a miserable life? Why would God allow me to fall in love with someone to take him away? Why did he let my brothers rape me, my exhusband beat me and almost kill me? Why did he put my husband in my path. I am married to him and realized years ago, we have nothing in common and I was so very unhappy! The thought that eventually we will have to be intimate again is so distressing. I feel so alone it hurts! I used to be positive but I can't find it in me anymore. I was a happy go lucky person and believed I would be happy but after 37 years, I've stopped believing. I'm so sick of hearing everything will be okay. No! It's not okay! I'm not okay! Everyday is a struggle and hate happy people!
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