SO sick of it! I'm tired of it :(

I read your post and know how you feel. For me, the first panic attack with palpitations/fluttering came out of the blue 5 years ago and got me straight to the docs thinking I was having a heart attack.. examinations showed no imminent arrest nor heart problems, although I do have a heart murmur so that made me scared when I felt the fluttering, like a bird was flying in my chest, along with choking sensation in my throat. I know now these symptoms are classic Panic Attack. I was given various medications, such as Propanalol which calms and slows the heart rate, on a need to take basis during an attack. Then was prescribed Cipralex (Escitalapram) - a longer acting anti depressant effective for anxiety. Over a period of weeks, that did kick in and worked for me. I also underwent a 13 week course of CBT therapy. No more panic for several years. So last year I stopped taking it, thinking there was no more need for it. A month or so ago, however, after a period of stress, the palpitations started up again - as well as being short of breath, sweating and blurred vision. One panic attack after another, making me have to take sick leave from work and hardly able to go out. I cannot drive for fear of an attack, nor even go shopping or to my gym alone. I now am back on Escitalopram, waiting for it to kick back in again and get my life back as it was before I stopped taking it. Like you, my partner has a problem with this condition - it is not nice to witness nor live with, as well as me being off work and not earning to help the household expenses. My only social life is people coming to the house. I know it will get better again, but waking up each day wondering if the tightness in my chest is the start of another panic attack is part of the cycle. I can only urge you to get advice, medication and CBT therapy if this sounds like anything you are experiencing. For the immediate or short term, try and see a doctor to get a Diazepam (same in any language) tablet for the trip home. My doctor gave me a 5mg tablet when I was almost on the floor in the surgery, for an instant relaxant to get over the panic. I have 2 more in the house 'in case'. Good luck.