Somatic Symptom Disorder (SSD)

Hi.  I had the flu in January 2018 and developed breathing issues and GI problems, which persist to this day.  I have seen multiple specialists in an attempt to find out what is causing my inability to get a deep breath.  I was on disability for 4 months, but now back at work.  When you can't breathe, it impacts every aspect of your life.  My wife thinks I am obsessed with my health and I can't tell you how many fights we have gotten into about whether my illness is due to organic factors or is psychosomatic.  My wife thinks I have Somatic Symptom Disorder (SSD), which I feel is just another BS diagnosis invented by the psychiatric cartel.  Yes, I have spent a lot of time journaling my condition and sending letters to my health care providers to provide a summary of my symptoms so that they can help me find out what is wrong with me.  Most recently I had a PCP that didn't care and just wanted me to go away as he felt that health concerns were "all in my head."  I do have anxiety and I have admitted as much to everyone, including my wife and PCP.  When you can't breathe and every moment you are faced with (i) an inability to fully breathe, or (ii) the fear of not being able to breathe, it takes a toll on you mentally.  That being the case, I am sick to death of my wife constantly repeating "Somatic Symptom Disorder" to me every 10 minutes when I have pleaded with her that my condition is physiologically rooted.  Prior to having the flu, I was normal and didn't have any breathing problems.  For some reason, my wife can't add 2+2 and see the logic that one day I was fine, then next day I had the flu and then experienced breathing issues.  Can someone please confirm for me that this SSD is a bunch of hogwash?  Seriously, I read the description of symptoms and to me it's just a made up diagnosis to categorize people that are perhaps overly concerned with their health.  When you can't breathe or when you are enduring a chronic health situation for the first time in your life, my feeling is that you spend a lot of time trying to understand what is going on, particularly when you have not been definitively diagnosed and have no idea how long your condition will last.  I'm going to be 50 this year.  I have been dealing with the prospect of having to endure this breathing issue for the rest of my life and that alone is difficult to fathom.  I feel like my PCP and even my wife and my own mother just want to blame everything on some psychological mumo-jumbo because its just easier to blame the condition as being in your head than taking the time to understand what might be going on from a physiologic standpoint.

I am so sick

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