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I am absolutely fuming. I have suffered with anxiety since I was 14 years old(11 years). I never knew what it was for at leat 5 years! I just thought I was a bit strange and prone to fainting (which is what normally happens during a panic attack). Then I had 2 really traumatic things happen in a short space of time. I knew at this point I had anxiety but went on to have depression. I was treated for both things and recently I was able to come off my medication after starting to feel better and really benefitting from therapy. Anyway I started a new job last year and found it really stressful. It got me that down I started to struggle with my anxiety and feel depressed again. I went to the doctors (a new practice as I'd recently moved). I had 2 things I needed to speak to the doctor about. I know you should book double appointments but it was just literally I quick question. I went on to tell her I was feeling down, vertually in tears and she interrupted me with "sorry you need to be quick, this is only a 10 minute appointment". She wasn't sympathetic and she just gave me a quick fix of anti depressants even though I told her that I wasn't sure I wanted them because it took me 2 years to come off them. I didn't stay on them as they were different to the last ones and they made me feel unwell. I managed to get by for a while until I suffered from muscle aches every morning and struggled to get out of bed. I was suffering from chronic fatigue and really bad migraines. The doctors found abnormalities in my blood but later retested and they came back normal. After catching a bad virus and still feeling depressed and anxious I had a week off work sick. I'd decided I needed help and couldn't carry on feeling like this everyday. Work asked me for a sick note too. The doctor I went to see was huffing and puffing at me when I told him my virus symptoms. He told me I didn't need a doctors note and he was so rude that I broke down in tears and told him I thought I was depressed. He was really abrupt and made me feel like I was making it up or mad. He rolled his eyes at me so I told him how the NHS had made me feel recently, like I was a hypercondriac or something. He told me "it's just my anxiety and paranoia." He made me tell him all about my past traumatic experience saying "what have you actually suffered from that's been so traumatic then?" He made me feel like I was waisting his time and he had no sympathy for me at all. He couldn't get me out of the room quick enough. He let me walk out the door in hysterics and said abruptly "bye then" which meant go away now I'm late for my next patient. Without hearing the tone he was speaking to me in and seeing what happened this story probably doesn't sound that bad. But honestly this was such a horrid experience. I really feel that a lot of doctors don't care. I feel like they don't understand mental health and these days their priorities are getting through patents as quickly as possible and offering quick fixes. In my eyes being a doctor or a nurse isn't about just offering a drug to fix a problem. It's supposed to be a caring profession, offering care physically and mentally and offering support. I'm not saying all doctors are like this but the NHS have got this all wrong. I have family who are nurses and midwifes who used to enjoy the job because it was such a caring job. Now they get all of the paper work etc whilst HCAs take on the bloods and care side of things. I think I've rambled on a bit and I have lost my point but I do think people suffering from anxiety and depression are not given good enough support or sympathy. People don't understand it and think we're choosing to be like this. People will be sympathetic if you have the flu or sprain your ankle, but anxiety and depression, well that's just a load of rubbish to some people. I just want to say, anybody suffering from mental health issues I really feel for you. It isn't easy and everyday is a battle. Maybe we should set up support groups or sign patitions? I don't know what to do but something is really not right here.
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