Starting freak out about next week
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im starting to panic about next week, I have an appointment on Tuesday at the hospice, with treatment for relaxation, the on Thursday I see my counsellor, the first time. I have loads of meetings at work, which I have to run. I'm not good in front of people. It's a really busy week, but getting nervous already. Everyone says it's going to be hard to see the councillor and it could be worse, even my boss said that it would be draining. It's going to be hard trying to figure everything out which is in my head. There stuff that I never talk about, I'm scared she'll ask questions that is hard to say. I know I need this, my life is being effected, at work and home. Not as much at home as I could tell them, can't burden them with this. Also people say they may say about telling mum and dad. I can't do that to them. I HATE myself, I feel really needy at the moment, and it makes me angry and scared! Will people say they have had enough and go, I know people are busy and my head says if they don't reply they don't care and running away as they think I'm needy, which I am. But I need to get stuff out of my head.
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michelle82267 Blackhole
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The councillor will not be trying to catch you out and can't make you answer any questions you're not ready to answer. You are likely to get more out of the sessions if you open up but it doesn't have to be in the first session, just whenever you're ready. I bet you'll feel more positive afterwards, I certainly have!
If you are still dreading the week ahead try to fit in some time for yourself to do something nice, go for a walk or something to give yourself a treat to look forward to. You deserve it - keeping yourself happy is an important part of looking after the people around you, (like the instructions on planes where they tell you to get your oxygen mask first before helping others).
I think it would be great if you could open up to friends and family eventually, I imagine your councilor could help you feel less like you are letting them down and less embarrassed about feeling the way you do, it's not anything to be ashamed of! I wouldn't be surprised if you find some family members who will then tell you they felt the same at some point, a lot of people are just too proud to admit but if we talked more we'd find it's less of a big deal! But again, that doesn't have to be next week, you've made so much progress by going for the therapy. Be proud and stay positive
hypercat michelle82267
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restart Blackhole
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Your counciler will know your feeling anxious, & have stratagys to help you talk through what it is thats got you feeling this way, if needs be, let your counciler do the talking untill you can open up, you may find once you start to explane things you wont be able to stop,! ( wich is VERY cathartic )
Take care.
tony15730 Blackhole
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