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Hi. This is pretty tough for me. I think I've been suffering from depression for some time now, but only in the last couple of days have I finally managed (with a bit of encouragement) to say it out loud. I'm posting here as I don't feel ready to go to the GP yet, but wanted to try and 'talk' about how I'm feeling with others to see if I can do it & how it makes me feel.
I don't really know why I'm finding it hard to talk. Maybe I'm embarrassed, I think I feel stupid, weak, i don't know. The thought of sharing what I'm going through in my head with a doctor is pretty unbearable right now, it took me so long to say anything to those closest to me, and they are now encouraging me to seek help. I'm just not sure where to start. Scared of what people will think about me.
I don't have a 'reason' as such to be unhappy. I have a wonderful wife, 2 children, a good job - all I need really. But I am unhappy, struggle to get out of bed in the mornings, don't sleep well, have absolutely no libido, feel like I want to cry randomly, don't smile much, have no patience with the children, shout a lot, find it hard to be interested in anything much including work, occasionally wonder what would happen if I let go of the steering wheel when driving the car alone.
So I think it's depression. What will the doctor say, what help could I be offered? Am I even right to think I may be depressed? I don't even know if I can post this on the forum, feeling sick to the stomach thinking about my feelings being 'out there'. OK, here goes.
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