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147 days ago my wife stood up and announced to the family, "I'm moving out". I have been a faithful husband for 22 years and thought things were pretty good. At the time there were 3 children with us, teens. One child we were mentoring. This child had been with us for almost a year. The others are our children. She has been living a double life and in hindsight I was aware. Our relationship has revolved around addiction with her spending many visits to rehab and overdosing. Alcohol, prescription drugs and pot. I am strait as a die. I am here for my kids every day and have been for their entire lives. I study and work part time and am struggling to pay the bills. I only have a couple of friends because I have beeen a mother and a father for children and a carer for my wife, ultimately ignoring my own needs. I had my wife and my kids therfore I needed nothing else. I now find my self lost. I am all heart, I jog 6-8 km most days and do 700 pushups each day, this is to strengthen my heart. I breathe to get through each day. I just want to have my own thoughts back. (I want her to get better... I want to see her Love her kids...) how do I stop thinking about someone I love so much.
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