Stomach pain-it want go away!
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Things arent great but I know im copingbetter than a little earlier.
Im really worried about my ex. his mums really ill now :cry:
Ive pain in my stoamch-its low down not as before and its getting worse-but ive had it for ages, but now its there all the time//its like theres something solid and it want shift. Like something has got stuck..( I should add for anyone new here that that has nothing to do with ingesting cit!).
Had to get an extension fro my coursework and feel guilty! Plus Kiddies finish up for esater so I cant see me doing it-what is this ...did someone shoot me in my sleep???( if it were that bad I wouldnt be able to type!) Ill give it anoother few weeks then..its been there whatever it is for ages, so im ignoring it, bugger iff-soory talkking to that thing!
Right illl leave you all and give you some peace. Maybe some sleep would do me some good!
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I hate this. I cant believe Im back down again-but this time I dont even want to be near anyone-as Im scared!
Im not going to write what I am thinking about doing...as I dont want to be thinking it-but I just htink everyone thinks im a bitch because no one lets me say \"hello, im there mum and I make the plnas for once?\"...Its me that does the cleaniing up after them the feeding, the traking them to school and so on and ( That sounds so bitter - I dont mean that to , its just surely I should be alloewd to say \"No! I cant because these people also help me out to-so I cant and that all sounds really ungrateful but like I said I think I am a total bitch.
I cant discuss the rest here as its wat too private and involves others lives so I want but I think its something thats made me go back the way Please god dont let be another weirdoo exhibition of my self Plesas dont_ I dotn want to be loosing my balance and cuddling lamposts agian, but im al ready back to the screaming\"this room is a mess-what happened\" To god ( what a cow thinking -just do it yourself_ to howling in a 2 /3 hour hot bath-to no one cares anmd mMY GOD life is too short and Ill be dead before I know it anyway so whay can t I apprecaite ...to some people would love to have my life-so whay cant I just be happy and why am I so emotional??? Is it the pain in my side thats set me off again?? i didont know I just know that ive not been well for a little time. somesort of 2 week cold and gagging and something ( probably just anxious I guess!)I hate moaning about it ( AND i AM LETTING OFF STEAM -IN THE HOP I CAN COME BACK AND THINK MY GOD GLAD THATS OVER, just like when I was delirious with chicken pox PLease let something good happen.. Frankly either I need to win the lottery or for anyone that is feeling psychotic, yeah please hurry up !Cant believ im sending this ....not that it really matters..I just hiope this is anonymous...and also Im not trying to offend anyone just letting of steam! What am I goign to do-moving out isnt an option...oh yeah -found lst years letter from my lawyer...theres bit about it that really get me angry , for instance, in the event that you want to part , you have to move out, and in the event that you MAY wish to take your children, the council will accomodate you as a priority ( YEAH RIGHT!) and from what you have told us there are no legal groundingds for getting him out the home...( WELL WHEN ARE THERE EVER LEGAL GROUNDINGS?????? Or does he beat his wife too?...I dont care if its emotinaly, physically sexuallly, financially, ///alll of it is nasty!) and I hate coming here I dont think he even understand how he treats me-he cant seem to see it, but like I said and like im told from time to tim e...I am a complete bitch Oh yeah and that twaddle about parental rights...in lthe ebveent he wants these he has to take me to court....well, look the guy wouldnt lend me a tenner a week ago , so why the hell would he want to take me to court for these?? he probably will, and then hell apply for custody , probably by that stage I want have any skin, maybe want even be hereI dont know. All I know is this is nt fair!!!! But iaas he says\"Its all my own making\" Must admit I did feel a bit lonely i in the old childbirth front and the \"You must breast feed I dfont care if it hurts-its better for the babay\" You must do your job properly ..this is home , not work, and why does nt he do anything except play computer games...okay rant over...SORRY-NOT MYSELF
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I have to look after the children now as exs mum has suspected tumours on liver and lngs, and its no good here. Its an awful unhappy enviorment.
The only good thing about being in pain is that ive finished one piece of coursework ( Yeah!) Now starting on the next peace of dribble.....5000 words to go......would anyone know, but these symptoms are just like my mums...they took something like a year to diagnose her and lef ther rolling about her house for about 6 of them...then gave her an 8 hour operation, to make more mess, to have another op...Please dont let this be happening. Then when I spoke to my own mum she reported how every known female i her family have all had cysts downstairs0Thanks for that mum-im not feeling too positive! sorry, just do not know where to go...The other good thing is its meant ive not been up to my usual badness, but stil cant get motivated! If anyone has any advice about this id be happy to hear a positive!