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I've been taking diazepam upt to 8mg on a day on an as and when needed basis since last October. I also take 30mg Mirtrazapine and have had a course of Zopiclone to help with sleeping.
I have been signed off work since November but returned part time in March and went full time again 2weeks ago. In January my husband was also diagnosed with terminal cancer which meant we had to move 2 weeks ago as he could no longer walk up 2 flights of stairs.
The move occured at the worst time as I had to work solidly for 7 days over the bank holiday and most days I was out 7am - 7pm working.
My husband's condition got worse over the weekend and we spent most of tuesday morning being passed backwards between the emergency number from the hospital and the GP. I also was working in London that day so was not at home. When I came home I found him in extreme pain and unable to get up or walk at all. As a result I called an ambulance and he was diagnosed with factures in both hips. I had run out of Diazepam and was finding it extremeley tough to deal with my anxiety -I was getting mixed messages from the doctors in regards my husband and alos had been up for over 48 hours with very little sleep in the days before. I got a prescription for more but was only given enought for 2 days. On friday I got a call at 7am telling me they were taking my husband into surgery. Given his condition it was a very risky op and I was told there was a chance he wouldn't survive the op. Being at home (although it doesn't feel like home yet as everything is still in boxes) alone I got very anxious, especially as a friend died from an embolism following similar surgery at the same hospital last year. I called the surgery and a doctor called me back basically saying I could not have any more diazepam as I was showing signs of addiction. Instead I was to up my mirtrazapine to 45mg and given more sleeping tablets because sleeping would help me feel better. He also offered to sign me off work which I didn't want as I had an important meeting.
Needless to say I ended up having a full panic attack and unable to go to work.
I've since read that if you have been taking diazepam for a while you shouldn't just stop as it is like withdrawing of any drug. Has anyone else simply stopped taking?
Husband came through the surgery well but has to go through it all again next week to fix his other hip. Not sure I can handle that alone.
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