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Hey everyone, been having a lot of health problems the past 6 months, i'm usually a fit healthy 20 year old male but these last 6 months have been probably the toughest of my life. I have been in constant pain every day and i've just been putting a brave face on i guess, yes of course i moaned alot but i still got on with my daily routines and still tried to act as if i was okay. But today it just got all too much for me for some reason, i was just sitting there thinking and i just started to cry. Everyone knows me and i am not the crying type, I literally have not cried in 15 years, its really annoyed me that it has come to the point that it made me cry. I know people say its bad to keep things bottled up but thats always been me, guess i'm just frustrated that i cried made me feel weak in a way.
I'm just wondering how i can cope a bit better, i thought i was doing okay at pushing through but i guess not, i know for a fact if this pain went away i would absolutely fine but thats the thing, it's been 6 months and i feel i am no closer to getting better, maybe even in a worse position, i am worried that i may never get my old life back, just need some kinda good news that i can work with i guess. The thing that annoys me the most is that before all this I was such an upbeat guy, i still try my best but i'm just pretending which makes people think i'm my usual self.
Anyway sorry for the sob story but just need some advice not used to feeling down for this long, wanna get back to my usual upbeat sarcastic self that people get annoyed by but deep down love! :P
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