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Hi i am struggling big style this wk. I have been this past month but after a big night out last Saturday i have been worse since i spoke to this guy that seems i have feared over the years. To cut a long story short. 25 yrs ago a guy that i no hit this guy i was 17.. didn’t see it it went to court. I said to older mates to impress i will be a witness. Court day i didn’t do it or want to do it in the end. The 2 guys had a drink in the pub after it got chucked out of court was in pub also.. yrs later i always thought he would recognise me so to speak. He did get that guy back (my older mate back for what he did) about 6 yrs ago was out drinking i,ve always sort of said hello to this guy, but then he said us the group of us seem to give him the cold shoulder so to speak. I reacted by sayin that’s in the past forgot about it. Then my anxiety started for him i started fearing him from then on. Obsessing over it. Over the years seen him loads he’s a big guy very intimidating. But no hassle. Saturday just gone he appears in pub late at night he was talking to my other mate .., drunk. My anxiety was going up was getting paranoid more and more. So i asked him outside politely to ask him if he’s ok with me. I thought it was a good idea at the time. He did say he didn’t but could tell he was shocked i asked him that. I forced a handshake and bought him a pint. Left the pub felt good. Next day i felt like crap in why did i do that. Monday onwards i have really bad anxiety depression obsessing constantly thinking. Next time i see him something will happen next time in pub or something. As you can tell it’s really bothering me. I have been a worrier for over 30yrs. Ocd thinking’s of the worst that’s going to happen mainly.
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