Suicide through long term drug overdose

How long have you been taking anti depressants on a regular prescribed dose? They take a while to kick in and if not having a proper affect you should get a review.

Please take care

PS This is an extremely good and supportive forum-

www.mentalhealthforum.net/

sorry for sounding so brutal and being late in getting back to you, but, you say your not that selfish and that you would refuse a liver transplant, well im afraid that you wouldn't be able to refuse if you were sectioned, to be sectioned you need to be a threat to yourself or others, clearly you are a threat to yourself

you say you are having treatment for "a bad rash which is covering most of my body and very itchy" obviously you haven't told your GP about the massive amounts of paracetamol your taking have you ?? so whats the point in seeing your GP about it, for goodness sake its the pills that are causing the rash mick, plain and simple, your GPs not psychic is he/she ?

heres an official list of SERIOUS side effects :-

"Hypersensitivity reaction (rashes and shortness of breath).

Blood disorders resulting in readiness to bruise or bleed (e.g. thrombocytopenia) or low numbers of white blood cells (leucopenia).

If any of these persist or you consider them severe then inform your doctor or pharmacist.

Remember that your doctor has prescribed this medication because he or she has judged that the benefit to you is greater than the risk of side effects. Many people using this medication do not have serious side effects.

A serious allergic reaction to this drug is unlikely, but seek immediate medical attention if it occurs. Symptoms of a serious allergic reaction include: rash, itching/swelling (especially of the face/tongue/throat), dizziness, trouble breathing.

This is not a complete list of possible side effects. If you notice other effects not listed above, contact your doctor or pharmacist.

In the UK you may report side-effects to the MHRA"

one way or another you've got to talk to somebody about the situation, but in the meantime try and stop the pills eh, cant you see that they are making you feel worse NOT better 8)

as regards buying in bulk, where from, the internet ?? if so it could be any old crap your pumping into yourself, just please stop it now, whatever you pay for the pills, stop and spend the money on the gymn or whatever

again im sorry if im upsetting you but these things need to be said, your family would be devastated, there lives would be mega affected by your death, whether you believe that or not doesn't alter the fact im afraid.

keep posting mick, well get through this

cheers,

Ken~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Please dont worry about being brutal, I was brought up by my grandmother who was never backward in coming forward, sore subject which I am not going to go any deeper into.

I get the tablets from Costco, so I doubt there is any crap in them, but who knows what goes into half the stuff we use. They cost just under £4 for enough for about 3 weeks, my local council run gym costs over £4 for one session........

The rash is actually getting better even though I am taking the same dose, I wasnt given anything by my gp so it is getting better on its own. I went because my husband made the appointment for me, he was fed up with me scratching and was worried I was infectious........... and it might affect him or the kids.

As far as my family being devastated, not so sure, they would only be upset because I wouldnt be there to do their washing etc or they wouldnt be able to blame me for whatever they have an issue with, my husband would just have one less person to ignore and also he would have to waste less of his money on food, which is probably why I dont eat much either.

It is nice to get others opinions, although I only started posting as I wanted to know how long I had left, every day is just torture, yesterday was really bad, and today isnt too much better.

I have been treated for a long long time for depression and have an idea how bad you are feeling. I also know that when you are in the Mental Health system there is an enormous amount of help available. Please at least give that a chance before making any final decisions.

Take care

You are right about the stigma, my inlaws just think I should pull myself together and get on with life

Going off line till tomorrow

Take care.

PS telling someone to pull themselves together is no help so ignore

call the Samaritans support service on 08457 90 90 90

go to your nearest accident and emergency (A&E) department and tell the staff how you are feeling

contact NHS Direct on 0845 4647

make an urgent appointment to see your GP

Please get help now, do not think about other people right now, think of yourself, and getting yourself strong again. I had a severe mental breakdown, I thought my life was over, I got through it, you can too. There are so many of us mentally ill in this world, you re not alone, ever. <3>

I think that thinking through everything is just making you worry more and more. It's like a vicious cycle that you need to break. I don't believe you truly want to just give up, on your life, your husband, your children, on the chance of being happy again, and just let yourself feel worse and worse and more low, and your eating disorder get worse and be more and more unhappy. Imagine how good it would be to feel relaxed and content again? Because you CAN get better. It might take time, but really, you have nothing to lose do you? You can't feel much worse, right? So why not just try?

If you don't have someone you can properly confide in about this WHOLE situation (and I mean tablet taking and eating disorder and all) who can go with you, then you're going to have to pick yourself up and decide to make a change and go to the doctors. Just take it a step at a time. Step one: be honest with the doctor. Because how much worse can it get??

All these problems you talk about, they can all be dealt with. For example, your eating disorder CAN get better if you seek help. Many people have. But it won;t get any better until you decide to try.

The cycle you're in is that you need to regain some self-worth before you get help, otherwise you'll just think there's no point and want to give up as you do now; but you need help to regain some self-worth after having this attitude that you are worthless for so long. But you need to break this cycle, and only YOU can do that, no one else. Otherwise you'll carry on feeling this way for the rest of your life and no one deserves to feel like that. No one. Give yourself a chance to feel happy and content and full of life. And dont forget its not your fault that you feel this way so you shouldnt be ashamed or embarrassed; depression can be caused by genetics and there are loads of scientific studies happening right now (Ive just finished a biology degree so trust me, I had to read them all ) about serotonin (a chemical in the brain) levels and how a lack of or it's receptor cells may cause depression. Many scientists think it does.

"Feeling hopeless and helpless are part of the disorder, and so depressed people are prone to believe there is nothing they can do to help themselves. That is flatly untrue. When people educate themselves and take proactive and deliberate steps to get help, including self-help, the probability of overcoming depression is high. " - from MIND

So, my point is, if you had, say, an ear infection you'd go to the doctors and not think twice right? So what's the difference here? This is a problem, just like that. A problem that you need the doctors advise with, just like that. So really, reallllllllyy, I can't see any reason why you wouldn't go. Just please stop thinking and just do, and just trust everyone on here that it's the right thing to do at this moment in time. And if you return home, after being completely honest with him/her, and think it was a complete waste of time, then you're just still in the exact same position you're in now, whereas if you didn't go you'd just stay in this position anyway! SO you see, not only do you owe it to yourself (and me because I'm worried about you :p ) but all you have is something to gain and nothing to lose!

Good luck and let us know what he says. The beginning of the rest of your life starts when you pick up that phone and make an appointment.

Al

Take care

Thinking everything through helps sometimes, but I am not really sure I am comfortable with sharing my thoughts and feelings with health professionals. I dont think that I am that bad, and anyway surely it is my decision - rather like turning the tv off. I dont feel of any use and more alone when the family are around, they just seem to ignore me unless they want something, why cant I just switch myself off?