Thanatophobia and am I normal
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I am 29 years old I live with my partner we have been together for 5 years I love her to pieces but I am constantly wondering if there is something wrong with me mentally this has been going on for years before my partner but I got together.
Think about death constantly not killing myself or anything like that but I think about someone close toe dying and how I'd feel I often cry about things that haven't happened yet it takes over my day once I was sitting on a bus and an elderly lady got on and I thought as horrid as it sounds I wonder when she will pass away what will happen is there an other side but I terrify myself I feel sick and get a strange empty pain in my chest I've looked up Thanatophobia but unsure if can be treated
I am also extremely immature and have poor concentration I get board easily and have found myself being disruptive I find it hard in my job doing the same task over and over
I also can be very up and down one minute I'm happy next I'm sad next I'm agitated and angry (never violent)
I'm paranoid for the stupidest reasons , like my partner going to work I check her hours so I know what. Time she will be in etc
My mum suffers from depression and has done since she was 19 not sure if that's relevant
I can't live the rest of my life like this I've lived nearly half my human life already feeling like an outcast I don't want to stay this way
Any advice?
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Thank you for sharing your experience, funnily enough at 29 I am currently going threw medical induced menopause due to having endometriosis, although that's only been in last 6 months.
My mum also suffered with endometriosis aswel so I'll deffo be mentioning it to my gp.
Although I've felt this way as long as I can remember but I suppose you have hormones at all ages .
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So sorry you have to go through medically-induced menopause so young. I, myself, had adnomyosis (sp?)--something similar. Just wondering if you felt like this as a kid before the whole hormone run around started? Elisabeth
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How do you feel now?
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Well I don't have the menopausal doom anymore, although I do have a lot of health problems and kind of think, well if I die, I die. But, if I don't, I don't. It's kind of a fatalistic point of view, but it's not the same continually obsessive doomed thinking of before. One thing that you might want to try is Rescue Remedy Relief (Bach flower formula). It helped me when things were reallly bad. I really don't have to do it anymore. The only thing about it is that you can't use it all the time as it loses its effectiveness if it's overused. But, if you save it for the really bad times, it might help. All my best to you. I truly hope that this clears up for you as I know that it is extremely disturbing. Truly, Elisabeth
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Elizabeth - I would absolutely love to know how to get hormones tested. I am based in the UK (not sure where you are). What's the name of the test please?
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