the worst day for ages

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last night and again this morning a dramatic change but not for the better, became extremely anxious late last night and actually frightened myself with its intensity, did eventually sleep albeit restlessly, and got up to more of the same, anxious, irritable, and not understanding why?? things were going so well for several days then wallop. day 13 of my 40mgs I think so I'm well on my way, theoretically at least, should I go back to bed and hide from the world for the day, my head is crying inside and I do'nt know what to do

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    Maybe the side effects have suddenly kicked in, or maybe a combination of having a major blip too.  It'll pass David, however horrible it is.  You got through this before, and you'll get through this too.  Go for a walk, or just rest and go back to bed if you feel like it.  Whatever makes you feel comfy.

    Itll pass David, and sorry you're having a tough time today.

    Accept how you are, and carry on.  Thinking of you xxx

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    Bless you, poor love! When youve had a few good days the bad ones are really hard to take :-( it may be just a "normal" bad day or the 40mg having side effects, its so hard to know in all this isnt it?

    Have a blanket day if you need one, be good to yourself. Its crap but it wont last. If you can bear to, get out for a walk for 20mins, if not just pull that blanket tight around you n rest yourself, watch dvds or whatever you can to distract yourself.

    It'll pass, you know the drill. In the meantime sending big hugs at ya, hope passes quickly.

    Look after yourself, be thinking of ya.

    Vix

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      hello Vix,

      thankyou for your message, today was pants for sure, but right now feeling a tad better thank god. I panicked after having a couple of good days, in fact at first I did'nt relate it to the fluoxetine at all! silly me smile I love this website, without it and the lovely people on it I'd be screwed smile

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    I'm sorry for you, David.

    What I noticed (it might be true or not) is that while my body was getting used to the medicine, having a good day sometimes coincided with bad days afterwards.

    Actually, my depression crisis started after having good days. I remember that I had a very good weekend, with some friends, and Monday I was good, and Tuesday morning I was feeling too well for a morning. I remember that I was surprised that I was so energetic early in the morning. Guess what? My mood deteriorated in the afternoon. Next day I got headache and my depression crisis basically started there.

    We indeed have something going wrong in our heads. They claim that it might be decreased number of neurotransmitter acting on the synapsis, and that is why most of the medication we take act in trying to increase this number. I sometimes wonder that while we are ill, we deplete our neurotransmitters when we have a good day. This happens with ilicit drugs, but we unfortunately might be doing this without taking any drug.

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      hello Danilo,

      thankyou for your message, it makes very interesting reading and indeed makes a lot of sense, you are certainly very well informed. it is very much a catch 22 situation we are in if when we are feeling good we are depleting the neurotransmitters which then cause us to feel crap. perhaps I will have to get used to paying a price for having some good days? oh dear, what a mess. pardon my bad memory Danilo but was it you that is taking 60mgs fluoxetine per day? once again thankyou for your message smile

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      The researchers really dont know. But the one of the first hypothesis (perhaps the first?) was about low quantity of neurotransmitters in the synapses.

      I'm on 60 mg of fluoxetine feeling very well, aside from excessive day sleepiness. I was feeling too tired during the day, but without those horrible toughts. For this reason, and because I promised myself that I won't take half measures anymore, I visited my old psydoc here in my country. She agreed to augment my treatment with an antidepressive called bupropion (wellbutrin). This one tend to be very activating and act on different neurotransmitters than fluxoetine (fluxoetine act on serotonin and bupropion on norepinephrine and dopamine). I have used this one in the past because of decreased libido due to a SSRI, but now I'm using it because of fatigue. And today is my second day on wellbutrin and I'm already feeling much more motivated.

      If I were you, I would give a couple more days to 40 mg. I went from 40 mg to 60 mg after 4 weeks, and I think it was enough for testing 40 mg.

      In my opinion, David, your case is easier than mine because I suffer from severe social anxiety since my 15's, and the docs know that depression and anxiety walk together. Since this is your first case of depression, I think you can handle easier than me...

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      Just to clarify, my current treatment is: 60 mg fluoxetine + 150 mg bupropion.
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      I have been a loner all my life Danilo, had a very isolated childhood because of my fathers occupation (lighthousekeeper) and as an adult I'm not people friendly to this day, is that perhaps a form of social anxiety? perhaps that's part of my troubles, I need to get over this current episode and seek fresh advice from my doctor, thankyou so much for your advice, great chatting with you smile
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      This always happens with recovery ..... good days and bad days.  Sometimes half a day, sometimes a few hours, sometimes day or weeks.  Seems each time the good times get stronger and longer, almost as if your body is trying to getting used to it.  Even after months of feeling good, you can suddenly get a bad spell.  They do eventually peter out altogether though.

      Heres a really good read too:

      health.harvard.edu/newsweek/what-causes-depression.htm

      Remember to put http://www. before it though.  Couldn't put it altogether as can't put web links here.

      Emis Moderator comment: There is no problem including links in posts as long as they conform to the rules in the link below. There is no need to try and get round the moderation process - the url will still be sent for moderation but will be approved if relevant as this one was.

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    Oh bless you,  big hugs to you.  If it's such a bad day then do what feels best. Daughter loved blanket days( I love that saying) then by evening it was a change of pj's and back under the blanket. 

    You know it won't last, don't fight it, when daughters head was on fast forward or thinking bad thoughts, she had a safe place to imagine, hers was a deserted beach, with the sound of the sea. 

    Again, big huge hugs, I hope your day got easier.  Xx

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      hiya Karen,

      thankyou for your kind words smile oh dear today was a nightmare, I basically went out once to get logs then parked myself on the couch where I still sit! kinda dozed off and on throughout the day, managed a bowl of porridge @ teatime, for the very first time I have lost my appetite, strange or what? if anybody is going to things differently guaranteed it will be me! my day has got better thankfully its now 8pm and things reasonably calm, having said that they were calm last night up until around 11pm, bless you Karen and a huge thankyou xsmile

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    hoping things aer getting better!!!   It is so hard to go through and see others suffer so much!   you are not alone!!!   Im so sorry, please be kind to yourself.....you give so much encouragement to others!

     

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      hiya Crayola,

      thankyou for your kind words, as the day has progressed things have calmed down thank god, bizzarely for the first time today I lost my appetite, had some porridge to keep me going! how are you doing? do hope you are starting to see some light at the end of the tunnel, keep smiling wont you smile

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    Hi David

    I can really feel for you. Those horrible down days after having good ones. The rollercoaster of emotions. To me it felt like i was trying to walk in treacle. But as time went on on 40mg of flu the big swings in mood levelled out. I'm sure this will happen with you too in (that dreadful word) time.

    It will seem like such a waste of time on the down days but you have to go with the flow and the medication will do what it is supposed to do. It is pointless trying to fight this damn illness.

    As you can see, sleep is not high on my agenda tonight but that is not just because of the depression - many other factors i shall not bore you with.

    Persevere with 40mg for a while longer and i'm sure you will see the benefits.

    Best wishes.

    MP

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