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If i said I was completely anxiety free I'd be lying, but I can say for a fact this is the best I've felt in months, for once I am seeing things clearly and being less afraid and just going with the flow and living in the moment.
By going back to work, starting the gym and stuff I'm busy a lot I have the motivation back and the gym is my hobby. Being in work made me wonder how I ever coped being out of it, It's motivating knowing your working and part of something. I never thought I'd get out that black hole I faced everyday wondering how I would feel the next day and so on, I was so close to giving up, I used to wake up every morning and examine how I felt, now I get up every morning and get on with the day, I have some anxious thoughts but hey I'm only human. I've realised derelization cant hurt me neither can my anxious thoughts as I am the only one who can control them and get rid of them.
I've realised people have it worse than I do, people have physical problems they literally can not live with, my mental health problems can be fixed or if not fixed they can be helped. I've stopped googling things that I know will make me anxious, I pushed myself to go to the shop and to do things that make me anxious untill It didn't bother me anymore. I couldn't have done it from the support from this forum!
We can either go through life spending hours days or years wondering why we feel the way we do and why we do the things we do, or we can get back out there and do the things that matter and step out our comfort zones and live a little. Only a few weeks ago I felt like I couldn't cope. and let me add I am on NO medication or seeking NO therapy. My friends, family and boyfriend they are my councillers. I will be having therapy soon to make sure I have a healthy mind and no anxiety and stress builds up. I still have an anxiety disorder but I've learnt I can control it and I'm on the road to do doing so :D
We all deserve not just to have a life but to live it aswell! If this motivates or helps just one person I'll be happy because I couldn't of done it without the support from the forum. xxxxxxxxxxxx
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