These intense feelings going worse daily

Don't think I have tunnel vision the room goes darker and hazy and colder temperature which lasts a few seconds and then my vision goes off and then I come out of it but don't lose memory. I'm just reading these are simple partial seizures an aura of a bigger seizure to come. If these symptoms started easing daily I wouldn't feel as bad but their going worse. 

Don't think I have  tunnel vision the room goes darker and hazy and colder temperature which lasts a few seconds and then my vision goes off and then I come out of it but don't lose memory. I'm just reading these are simple partial seizures an aura of a bigger seizure to come. If these symptoms started easing daily I wouldn't feel as bad but their going worse. 

You say that Marleen so why do other websites say you can have clear results but still have seizures or epilepsy. I have read it on genuine epilepsy forums. People have said you can of had it as simple partial seizures and then develop it years later as full blown seizures 

Jonathan you are looking for evidence to back up your fears and that is all you are interested in.You have been on forums for epilepsy and people have validated your fears.How did that make you feel? You have been on this forum and people have had ànxiety attacks the same as yours.You are absolutely torturing yourself and you are going to push yourself over the edge.

I know but then it could be anxiety or epilepsy then couldn't it? 

Have you tried anything to rule one of them out.

No I don't understand what you mean? 

Have you tried to stop googling, fixating on every sensation, going on epilepsy forums all the things you are doing which are fuelling your fears?

Yeah I see what your saying but these symptoms are actually happening i am not making them up. I just had another mini one now it lasts seconds how can it be panic/anxiety? They last much longer 

How do you know that I have had panic attacks that have lasted seconds not all panic attacks last minutes they can sweep over you like a wave.Evryone is different.I suffer real physical pain from ànxiety that is the nature of anxiety.

But Marlene this describes exactly how I feel? http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Epilepsy/Pages/Symptoms.aspx

So you believe your having the aura?

Yes I do believe it, what else could it be? 

How many episodes a day are you having and have you anyone with you at the time?

I have a fair few a day and people around me just say I stare as if I look frightened but I can feel it happening the panic builds up, vision goes darker I get all tense and cold then it washes away within 5 seconds or so 

My advice is that having so many will show up in an MRI so if that is what it is a neurologist will detect it no problem.Take someone that has witnessed one with you so that the neurologist can have all the facts

Hi Jonathan, nobody is going to convince you otherwise but anxiety can build and last only for a few seconds, you loose your peripheral vision when anxiety hits which could explain the perception that it goes darker, your muscles tense up and you get the shivers which is what happens to me.

Your bound to look frightened because you are! 

Neil 

See marleen your now coming round to my thinking that it is seizures and not anxiety? Without meds thus will get worse. 

Yes Neil but it's getting worse and very much what I have read identical to simple partial seizures please read the link in my above post 

Absolutely not l am giving you advice how to get the best out of your appointment.You need to listen to your neurologist.

I do listen to the neurologist but my MRI was three years ago and although he has sent me for an EEG in six weeks he said he very much doubts it's epilepsy as he said I would have amnesia and strange behaviour like fumbling with hands or picking at clothes but their complex partials mine are more like simple partials. He won't send me for another MRI tho. 

Tell him what you believe you have.Download the information you have and take it with you.This is to stop you coming away thinking he missed that.Ask for a MRI scan.

I have told him all these things but he tells me not to google stuff and won't listen when I tell him. I am not going to be seeing him again now until I go for my eeg in six weeks and I can't contact him because it was done privately so I am stuck waiting for these symptoms to progress because without medication it won't go 

So he knows your concerns and he is not worried and he told you to stop googling.Well there you go there is nothing you can do until you get your appointment.

Yeah but I have to wait everyday thinking and worrying and waiting for that these simple seizures will turn into larger seizures don't I? 

You are going to have to get your worry under control as you say you have 6 weeks.Also stress isn't good for you so you will have to find ways of managing it.

I know Marleen but in your opinion do you think if this was seizures I would have had one by now or do you think one could be on its way? 

Jonathan I can only go on what you have said and what way you are reacting to your symptoms.l know it's not what you want to hear but you have classic signs of health anxiety brought on by panic attacks and your phobia of seizures.l know you don't believe me that is the sad part of it all.

Marlene you have been very helpful just one final question can you get loads of mini panic attacks within a day is this common that only lasts seconds? 

Apologies Marleen not Marlene 

Jonathan if you are under extreme stress and worry you get multiple panic attacks and they last for seconds.I know you don't believe me.Write down in a journal what happened before you get an attack.Try to see what way you are thinking what you are doing, what sensation you were feeling etc.See if there is a pattern to any of it.Just give it a go.