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So I've not been feeling great for a while. I don't feel the same emotions that I used to, for example I'm not anywhere near as generally happy as I used to be, I just feel "neutral" most of the time, using smiling and jokes to try and make me feel less like this when around people.
I don't feel the same when I'm with friends either, sometimes I feel like I don't say much.
Now I usually feel drained and have very little motivation to do anything.
I don't feel the same about things I used to do, I have a lot of musical instruments but find I hardly ever play them now.
Sometimes I eat very little compared to normal as well & I've had parent's coment I'm not eating much a few times when I've went through a period of not eating a lot.
I've lost a lot of sex drive as well (personal but I'm not sure if this has to do with it).
I also used to have panic attacks frequently if I was in some places, this hasn't happened in a while gladly ( I don't know if this is relative but I've heard this sometimes comes hand in hand along with deppression/anxiety).
I only drink socially and usually don't drink "too much" when drinking but lately I've found myself to drink A LOT compared to usual
I feel like maybe I have deppression but sometimes feel I might talk myself in/out of it? I don't know if others did this. Maybe I should go see someone about this but I've never been good at talking to people about personal things and I have a weird feeling of "what if I go and it turns out I don't, would I look stupid?/what is wrong?"
In short I just don't feel much like me.
Any advise would be appreciated
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gill73026 DavidC1259
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you are definitely depressed it doesnt take a doc to know that, going to therapy ( interactive) does help, well it helped me a lot but then I had years if it.
You dont or havent had mood swings then? because it you have felt wildly better at times you could be bipolar or if its chronic depression and it certainly sounds quite bad, you should get anti-d's off your doctor or you should see a psych really ( they are only there to prescribe most of the time but you can just talk if you want to. It takes quite a few anti depressants before you find one that suits you so dont be put off if one doesnt work.
By the way I have loads of instruments too and am trying to learn to play the electric guitar ( I am 70 by the way). You would never look stupid what you have is quite severe. Get help ( try vit B3 I always tell people it gives you hot flushes you start on low doses like 50mg and go up even to 1000mg stop the strength of the dose when you get a hot flush that says when its working, though you will have to increase when you are used to that dose, its capable of removing depression for some people.
DavidC1259 gill73026
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Thanks Gill, it's the first time I've posted/talked to anyone at all so it's good to have someone else say this to me.
Well done for learning! It's a really good thing to have I think. No I wouldn't say I've had had mood swings in a way that I'm terribly upset/annoyed but I have quite a lot of the time have days where I feel alright. For today for example, I lay in bed until around 2pm feeling heavy and staring at the wall, not really having the motivation to attempt to get up but now that I'm sitting with music on and had a shot of the xbox I don't feel as bad. I get days were I'm up and down like this and it's at these points I'm at now where I talk myself out of speaking to anyone about it because I'm alright & maybe I don't feel as bad so I leave it.
It's been like this for a while where I'm up and down but I don't think this is bipolar? What's your advise?
Thanks again Gill
DavidC1259 gill73026
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Along with my other Reply Gill, I never really thought about Being Bipolar, always thinking that it needed to be weeks and weeks of one mania/deppression and then the same of the opposite but I've read that it can be withing days or even hours. I've also read that when going through a mania stage you usually have a more energy than other people and also require/take less sleep. This makes a lot of sense with me if I'm being honest, I just feel that when I feel good, maybe I'm overthinking feeling deppressed and then when I'm feeling this way it is awful, a recurring cycle if you get me?
wayne1962 DavidC1259
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