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I keep thinking of the word "suicide" and it is triggering me. I do not want to die or hurt my self at all, but the word keeps popping in my head and it freaks me out. When it pops up in my head I will feel uneasy and ask myself if I wanna die because I am thinking of the word. The answer is no, but it still makes me scared that I am even thinking of it. It is starting to make me feel depressed because it is all I think about. How do I stop this constant loop of thoughts. Keep in mind my mom is suicidal & her most recent attempt was last december. I dont know if thats a tribute to my thoughts. Pretty much my overthinking is making me feel depressed.
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emily90404 emily95365
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I'm sorry to hear that you are going through a difficult time. A symptom of my depression is invasive thoughts. I often think of suicide or ways I would like to die. My therapist suggested taking the thought and making myself put it to one side. I say to myself in my head, "I don't want to think of this now. I'm going to put it out of my mind now," or, "this is not a helpful thought and I'm not going to think it now." I've found that this gives me a bit of relief from the thoughts. It maybe helpful to talk to someone about how you are feeling as that helps to remove some of the repetitive thoughts.
patient_mod1 emily90404
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Hi emily90404
We note from a recent post which you have made to our forum that you may be experiencing thoughts around self-harm. If we have misinterpreted your comments then we apologies for contacting you directly. But if you are having such thoughts then please note that you are not alone in this, and there are people out there that can help.
If you are having these suicidal thoughts then we strongly recommend you speak to someone who may be able to help. The Samaritans offer a safe space where you can talk openly about what you are going through. They can help you explore your options, understand your problems better, or just be there to listen.
Their contact details are on our patient information leaflet here: https://patient.info/health/dealing-with-suicidal-thoughts, which also offers lots of other advice on how you can access the help you may need.
If you are having such thoughts then please do reach out to the team at the Samaritans (or the other people detailed in our leaflet) who will understand what you're going through and will be able to help.
Kindest regards
Patient
SSekouB emily95365
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Not sure how old you are, but I remember having this very thing happen to me when I was in my late teens, early twenties. It was one of the most disturbing, disruptive times of my life. I can remembering being terrified that it was a sign that I was thinking about, or susceptible to suicide, even though, like you, I had no desire to hurt myself. Looking back, and knowing what I do now about depression and anxiety, I realize that it was my mind's way of coping with the stress and anxiety that was going on around me. In my case, my mother was dying of cancer. How does the mind deal with that? How does the mind deal with a parent who is so distressed that they attempt to relieve their temporary emotional pain with a permanent solution? Those are huge things to deal with, and the mind deals with it in varying, and sometimes troubling ways.
I encourage you to speak with a trusted friend about this, because sometimes just saying things out loud can get it out of our minds and into the space needed to process the feelings surrounding the thoughts. Also, I just read the most comforting article. It was entitled, "Is Life Worth Living"? It talks about things that happen in our lives that may depress or cause anxiety, and how we can find comfort, strength, and practical help to cope. It is only available online, but I am sure you will find it to be as helpful as I did. It can be found on jw.org. You have to go to the section "What's New", because it is an article that isn't set to be released to the public for another couple of months. But, check it out. I would love to know what you think of it.
I hope that you find relief from your troubling thoughts.
All the best,
Shawn
richard56310 emily95365
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You and millions of others Emily.
Think of it as you have an enemy who is disguising their thoughts as yours, we fight our enemies don't we.
For now learn to patiently accept and endure the pain - people who are at first sight somewhat weak mentally have actually much more about them than they realise, there is deep resilience in all of us so please allow that hidden aspect in your character to slowly grow. Don't expect it to be easy though, you'll have to learn to grind it out.
Stay in touch if you wish, I too suffer depression, at times very heavy so much so that Xmas was a complete write off
cheers for now
Richard
ann55375 richard56310
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i have tried and tried to rid myself of these thoughts but i cannot get them out of my mind. its led to depression but no anti dep has helped. also anxiety. have you found any med tomhelp
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