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I've been depressed for so long I can't remember when it all started, my negative thoughts are torture and opress me everyday to the point that they are stronger than me. I don't know what to do or what the solution is as I have been diagnosed with Depression and Bipolar Disorder. I am taking 75mg of Sertralin, 1200mg of Gabapentin and 40mg of Lurasidone everyday. They keep me fairly stable but I still have racing thoughts, I feel worthless, like I'm never going to get out of this hole of depression. Like I don't have the coping skills to live life since I can't handle change. I want to drop everything and just drift off to sleep hoping that it will all be over that way. I cannot handle all the things life has thrown at me. I am lost, vulnerable, scared, alone, feel void and empty of any meaning. I don't even know why I exist if I am dirt and worth nothing. This is my struggle everyday, I don't look forward to life anymore. I can't handle life, I don't have the skills or know how to get them. I'm too weak. People tell me to stay positive and stay in the present but it's so hard because I don't like my present. Coupled with the self-defeating thoughts, I am living a nightmare. Please help.
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