Trually fed up !!!!!
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I actually feel like wanna smash everything up , I didn't choose this life iam in . I moved away to start a new life I have no friends , I had a slipped disc for 9 months just had surgery 3 weeks back.
Am lonely am bored life crap, get a letter off my employer today to inform me they can no longer pay ssp.
So gave me a form to go job centre , never been job centre in my life I don't even know what to do this is giving me bad aniexty.
I managed so far from my ssp and savings I had but money gone now .
I don't know how am cope with all this that's going on . Being stuck in this house popping pills for pain.
Yes I suffered with depression for years and had some very low moments . .
And am on medication , but to be threw what I have last 9 months has taken its toll .
I just wanna scream my head off , when am I gonna get a break . Struggling all the time really is this what this rubbish is all about .
I don't know what am gonna do about job centre what do u do just turn up and say I need to claim.
I can't drive I can't even get to the.place yet , and this surgery better of worked otherwise I will lose it .
I can't live like this ........
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mike09523 donna97909
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Hi donna,
Wow, you are very low. First things first. No matter about everything else your number one priority-pain control.
Otherwise you will literally have a serious breakdown.
Go to your gp. . and explain,if you cannot say the right words write down your predicament and hand it to your gp .
You can't reason with the Jobcentre or your creditors in your state of mind. Contact the CAB and they should help you. You have no money and need help, get it.
Mike.
donna97909 mike09523
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Hi Mike
I feel like am gonna have a breakdown , had such a rough time and am trying my best to hold it together Dr's have already upped me anti depressents.
And yes think u maybe right to go cab ,I just can't sit for long periods of time at the moment. Everyone saying stay postitve donna it all get better
And am like I am trying
Thanks for replying Mike
jmcg2014 donna97909
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Being positive really has nothing to do with it, not with back pain, I'd say more be patient and be careful. Absolutely nothing can speed up how long it takes to heal, that's just how it is, all you can do is not aggravated it -which isn't easy, and wait it out. Sad but true
jmcg2014 donna97909
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donna97909 jmcg2014
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Thanks jmc, I know I have a long road ahead . I didn't have much option I had to have operation , couldn't do nothing and the last straw was when I collapsed.
I am now at the point of trying get off gabapentine also I stopped taking morphine horrible drug that .
Now am taking parcetamol ibrophen and tramadol and trazadone (antidressents)
Suffering with depression which they upped me pills and being in pain for 9 months has not helped me .
The meltdowns I had over these months and today was just as bad
ann55375 donna97909
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donna97909 ann55375
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Hi Ann , I had bad time after surgery I ended up being sick and had a panic attack well I felt I couldn't breathe . With the anasetic your depression can get worse . Last time I had anasetic I ended up with phycotic depression which lasted weeks . I couldn't stand anyone talking was annoying me . Having depression and having this slipped disc has took it toll on me . And after 3 weeks since surgery and I still have pain in back me leg . My mind thinking has this worked will pain go . So am crying all the time coz am so scared it hasnt. Am still on anti depressents the Dr put them up more due to me having a slipped disc.
Question the Dr asked was do you feel suicidal my answer was no but I rather nt be here . I had come off morphine coz it's the worse drug I ever had in my life .
Am still on pain killers just trying to get off gabaptine. I also not eating properly and my belly bad most morning which irratates my leg more .
Hope that helps Ann
ann55375 donna97909
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donna97909 ann55375
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Am on tramadol paracetamol and ibrophen and trazadone . I hope you feel better soon it is very hard but you are not alone .
Xx
ann55375 donna97909
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mike09523 donna97909
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Hi donna,
I can understand your wanting to come off drugs but don't stretch yourself to soon.
I am unable to have an operation on my cervical spine as it would mean total fusion of my neck. Therefore, to control the pain I have to stick to my routine, I have tried cutting down but within days I am in terrible pain and discomfort.
Best wishes,
Mike.
sam18386 donna97909
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Hi donna, get out of your house now. Take your pain killers only and go - anywhere. I have just had some awful personal news, which is devastating. Look after you, bugger any one else and find a cafe, park or somewhere to walk or sit. Walking is free, a park is good outside is best. Take a book if you want, get some chocolate and just lock the door, the nights are long now so go out. Oh and don't forget your coat. IF you have a friend nearby ask to see them and enjoy it. You need to escape.
donna97909 sam18386
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I did go for a walk I needed to get out for little bit am knackered now .
Take care and I hope all OK
sam18386 donna97909
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mike09523 donna97909
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Hi,
Isn't it strange how some meds suit most but some are made worse.
I was on tramadol but it didn't touch my spinal cord pain.Then the gp added naproxen and then withdrew it. Then eventually my problems were solved as follows:
Naproxen gabapentin amatriptaline morphine patch fluorine.
Must admit I battle through fatigue every single hour of the day, my alternative terrible constant pain.
Mike.