Turning a corner

6 weeks tomorrow. 60mg daily 

So it doesn’t mean it’s not working? 

Thank you for your support xx

Hi- forgive the hi jack. I am say 20 today at 20MG . Have better days and awful days. My question is: should I push myself to do things? Or not? When I do I seem to pay for it later. Example, I don’t dare try and drive, but I walked to the bank (two blocks, that part was fine) but standing in line - heart pounding breathing hard, sweat running down my back and feeling like I was going to pass out. Should I be trying and putting myself through this? Or am I making everything worse?

I appreciate your help and support.

Hiya Tracey, u can talk any time chic don’t worry on that one.. 

again for you, still early days sorry, Wen I was on 20mg I felt like you, and had good days as well as the bad, it wasn’t till I went up that it seem to level out, around 10/12 weeks, I know it’s a long way off for you, but as you’ve come this far keep it up as your doing well... 

why won’t you drive? I think if you can just keep your self busy or push yourself while Prozac settles down in your body, it will help, Prozac works on our minds, which controls how our body’s respond, so if we are down then you don’t feel like doing much, and your mind starts to work over time, when your happy you just forget  what’s on your mind and just get on with living again, while your walking, its like when you exercise, the endorphins are released, and your mind is taken of stuff so you feel ok... when you stop, you start to panic again for no reason at all, even with out you knowing it...

Keep doing what you feel best to do for yourself, and if you can cope then carry on by all means, your body will let you know when to stop, it’s all about trying to keep your mind busy if you can, I know easy said then done, as when things happen or when we are low, your not interested in any thing, but locking yourself away, been there done that..

When Prozac work, it’s great, but do understand we are all different and what works for one won’t for another person, 

I don’t think about tomorrow if I’m going to be ok, i just smile again now and happy, so Youve just got to give it more time, as Prozac is soooo slow to work, do what you feel best for you, don’t worry what others will think, good luck and keep in touch on here, as we are all here to listen to you and support you the best we can, 🤗x

Always hi jack I like to know how others are feeling and coping and what they are goin thro. X

Thanks. It’s so comforting to know I’m not in this on my own. 

Everyone keeps telling me that I’ve overcome this before so surely that makes it easier this time but it doesn’t at all because last time I was so low I didn’t even think about who I was before it took me. Now I’m angry and frustrated that I’m not there again yet. 

I’m also struggling with accepting that this can happen to me again even when I am in full recovery, last time I got well I told myself that it was a one off and I’d never have to face that pain and suffering again, when it got me this time it was totally out of the blue and it hit hard considering I was coping one day and a complete mess the next.  I’m finding it hard accepting that this is me and my future will have the possibility of relapses in it, during my worst times in this current fight Iv had to question if this is a future I can handle, it’s not just me either there is my children husband and friends to consider, this effects their lives to my illness impacts them and I find that so hard to cope with, the thought of having to watch them suffer again kills me. People say suicide is selfish because you leave people behind to deal with the pain however I watch my sons deal with the pain every time I get sick, the only difference is that they can’t be reassured and consoled with the fact that I am no longer going through this torture. 

Il fight, il fight with all I have to survive and just hope that my fight is enough. 

Everyone keeps telling me that I’ve overcome this before so surely that makes it easier this time but it doesn’t at all because last time I was so low I didn’t even think about who I was before it took me. Now I’m angry and frustrated that I’m not there again yet. 

I’m also struggling with accepting that this can happen to me again even when I am in full recovery, last time I got well I told myself that it was a one off and I’d never have to face that pain and suffering again, when it got me this time it was totally out of the blue and it hit hard considering I was coping one day and a complete mess the next.  I’m finding it hard accepting that this is me and my future will have the possibility of relapses in it, during my worst times in this current fight Iv had to question if this is a future I can handle, it’s not just me either there is my children husband and friends to consider, this effects their lives to my illness impacts them and I find that so hard to cope with, the thought of having to watch them suffer again kills me. People say ending it is selfish because you leave people behind to deal with the pain however I watch my sons deal with the pain every time I get sick, the only difference is that they can’t be reassured and consoled with the fact that I am no longer going through this torture. 

Il fight, il fight with all I have to survive and just hope that my fight is enough

I know exactly exactly exactly how you feel. 

We will fight.  We can do this.  It will get better.  We feel terrible now but we won’t forever.  This too shall pass. 

Iv had terrible headaches and can’t shift it with meds so Iv been using a cold patch for a little bit of relief. X