Ugh, Day 7 on citalopram feeling s****y
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This is my third time on, has worked well for me before but had forgotten it can be a bit troublesome in the beginning.
I had tapered down to 2.5 mg for a whole year and then stressful life events made me crash again. Have now increased up to 10mg which worked for me before.
Just looking for a bit of cheerleading, to be honest. Had four hours sleep last night and feeling rough. Had week off work last week for new dose to settle in but back at work tomorrow, and remembering that new dose settling in can take time. Plus very vivid, dramatic dreams.
Aaaargh!
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gemma77546 ruth08109
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ruth08109 gemma77546
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Thanks so much Gemma. It's really kind of you to reply. Uch, I had forgotten what the beginning is like. Weirdly, after a horrendous night's sleep, I managed a run this morning, and even though I was really tense for an hour after, I have felt totally normal all afternoon. The ups and downs are the wearing bit, aren't they?
Paula2019 ruth08109
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ruth08109 Paula2019
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Thank you Paula, hope you are well today, God this certainly takes patience doesn't it?
I decided yesterday to take this week out also, think I was expecting to be up to speed this week but realised I need a little bit more time to begin recovering.
The thing I find hard is that it can feel like a bit of a confidence knock to have another bout.
Mental illness is really tricky to deal with, this latest episode is making me really feel not to take my good times for granted.
Paula2019 ruth08109
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I had a six week break from tapering back in March, and couldnt stop smiling and enjoying life. Because I lost all my friends and boyfriend I joined a social meet up group and have made two new friends, one of them thought I was always happy and positive and thinks its just me, if only she knew.
Paula2019
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gillian176 ruth08109
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Have done the same taper myself in 2013 over a year and to 1.25mg
I know your story!
I crashed too and it took me ages/ years to realise I need Cit 24/7
My second time was tough too
Took me a good 12 weeks to see the light dawn
Troublesome is An under statement 🤣
Dreams. Insomnia. Yes yes been there
Passes though
Never coming off it again
Learnt my lesson the hard way
Keep at it.
You will survive
Am on 20 mg again. 16/12 now
ruth08109 gillian176
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I am so glad I took this week off.
Glad to hear you are also doing better also.
Anxiety is the absolute pits.
ruth08109
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So, bit of an update. After a hideous day of anxiety yesterday, and racing heart, and not much sleep, decided to visit gp this morning to tell them I had independently decided to raise from 2.5mg to 10mg eleven days ago. Got a bit of a wrist slap, but in a kind way, basically gp said 'you quadrupled your dose, no wonder you are experiencing so much anxiety.' Interestingly he said he would never have advised that as its such a big leap. He has advised me to reduce my dose as of tomorrow to 5mg per day. I kind of feel this makes sense, I have really reacted to such a big increase. It seems like I am much more sensitive to the meds than I had given credit. Feeling silly, like I should never have made the decision myself.... Also got some propranolol for the racing heart, to tide me over for a week or two. Fingers crossed this intervention will start to make me feel better.
ruth08109
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gillian176 ruth08109
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This drug is not to be messed with. Most people would have had same reaction
Sounds like u have good GP
And yes I know they say “ oh u can temper in no time”
So so wrong
lois95799 ruth08109
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Paula2019 ruth08109
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ruth08109 gillian176
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It certainly isn't, have learned my lesson.
Am just relieved to know it was side effects.... yesterday after I took it, about an hour later had such a racing heart. Hopefully some stability soon, now.
ruth08109 lois95799
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ruth08109 Paula2019
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Thanks Paula, yeah, that age and side effects definitely applies to me. I feel a bit relieved to at least know for sure that the horrible feelings were due to dosage increase, and not just me getting worse.
Gonna start practising some breathing for anxiety/progressive relaxation anyway, as am a worry head, it can't hurt.