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Carter_Drake
Carter_Drake

My gf has killed my soul. I feel terrible for multiple reasons. I worked so hard to stay faithful, and I mean not even trying to make other women laugh faithful. In fact I have been called a dick by numerous women for not giving them any play. A woman even asked me why I was still playing by the rules. Of course that sounded absurd at the time but it does not sound so crazy right now. I am a 5' 10" African-American male. I have multiple gold teeth and I am also riddled with tattoos everywhere. What I mean is that I am quite used to people looking at me and making a quick judgment, but now that judgment has a totally different meaning. I had no interest in doing some of the things that I do think today's life nor did I have any interest in going to college to earn a Masters degree. I guess that you can say I done it for myself but I also think that I kind of done it for her and for my future children.

This morning her parents looked at me with hatred. She told me that there no way she passed it to me, but refuses to come along with me to the clinic. Honestly, I think that she cheated but had thought she got away with it. Now this surfaces. I really don't know what to do.

The fear of life in prison has deterred me from murdering them. And no, I don't think that is an overreaction. I was completely for this woman and this is what I get. I've been such a great father to her daughter. I will miss her so much, but even worse, I'm sure she will be told, "Daddy left us," but that isn't the truth. I've been to Iraq multiple times and Afganistan once and I have never felt fear like this. I have always taken pride in being calm and the smartest in the room, but what I noticed is that now that I am faced with an unbeatable opponent, I have collapsed....

I remember a few months back having this gorgeous woman pester me over and over. I continued to turn her down. I seen her the other day and said hello she rolled her eyes at me and kept walking. In that very moment it did hurt a little but now the pain is immense.

I absolutely understand that condoms are 100% necessary, but after being in the same relationship with a woman for four years, I have to admit when the situation arose I was never thinking of putting a condom on. This woman was not just my girl she was my love and I believe that is why it is so unbearable right now.

Some may ask what was I doing at the clinic getting tested if I had a girlfriend. A friend of mine had a scare and the whole time that we were on the road going to the clinic I was just telling him not to worry that it would be OK and even if it did come back positive it would not be the end of the world....well look at me now. I go with a friend to make sure everything is OK and then I find out that everything is not OK with me. I have said enough. Totally floored right now. Thanks You all.

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  • cartercali
    cartercali Carter_Drake

    Posted

    Sorry that you we going through what you are going through .. It is rare that we see this from a mans point of view.

    And from your description you seem to be a very Nice gentlemen.. Extremely faithful which is very rare now days so why would she take this for granted ?? I would love to know ..

    I know everything seems like the world is ending but .God wouldn't put you through it if he didn't think you would make it.

    It's crazy because my boyfriend doesn't have the disease and we managed to have sex during one of my outbreaks he has had 3 tests all came back negative within a 4 month span ..

    I hope everything is going to be okay with you, don't get distraught by this disease and start giving up.. Just look at it as a skin disease that comes and goes.

    You're very successful and with or without the disease any female would be very lucky to have you

    • Carter_Drake
      Carter_Drake cartercali

      Posted

      Thanks for boosting me. Honestly, I just thought that if I was good to her, good things would happen for us. Aside from not being 6'4", I think that I was perfect. And as for not cheating, extremely rare is good...I knew this and that's why I worked so hard. I actually feel a little better since the first post, but we'll see in the morning. Thank you.
  • Alexinator
    Alexinator Carter_Drake

    Posted

    Stuff happens, no other way to say it. Don't let this virus take control of your whole life, you control your life. It does suck to have it but its not the end of your life, just a matter of perspective. Its just a skin condition, its changed how I see life in a way. In a good way though, you live and you learn. More people actually have this than you think so don't think you're alone. I was diagnosed a little over a month and a half ago so I'm still learning. I do know life is worth living, even with this.
  • FelizCastus
    FelizCastus Carter_Drake

    Posted

    I tend to take a factual approach to things, so if you don't mind me asking, which HSV type did you test positive for (Type 2, I suppose), how did you test (HerpeSelect, IgG or IgM, etc.), and what was your index value? And are you saying that you've never had an outbreak/symptoms of any kind to give you reason to test? Did your gf test?

    Herpes without an outbreak to test by swab can be tested by blood instead, but interpreting the results of the latter isn't always so simple, hence my questions.

    Also, it is possible to carry HSV-2 for years without obvious or recognised outbreaks/symptoms, so unless you had a negative HSV IgG test as a baseline at some point (or a definite first outbreak to pinpoint things), you cannot say for sure when you acquired this or from whom. Could well be from a previous gf.

    • Carter_Drake
      Carter_Drake FelizCastus

      Posted

      Tested pos for type two. I could have contracted it elsewhere but I doubt it. Before I had sex with her we both got tested for everything. Even before and after the last relationship I did. I was not a stranger to H. After doing much research, I can remember getting a little pimple on my knee cap. Never came back, but according to friends it sounded like a single blister outbreak. Index was 8+. I wasn't aware of an outbreak. She got tested with me before we had sex. We looked over each other's paperwork and we're both clean at that time. She tells me that I got it somewhere else, but come now, it's my body and I would know. If I was clean then, I should be clean now. I plan to get another blood test soon.
    • FelizCastus
      FelizCastus Carter_Drake

      Posted

      All of your HSV tests to date have been by IgG, not IgM? Assuming that to be the case, an IgG index value of 8 means you've had it for at least a few months, and if you were IgG negative before your current gf and never strayed, then it would seem to point to her. Has she tested for herpes again since? You might not necessarily be aware of the virus in your body, even at the time of acquisition, and the pimple on your knee was unlikely to have been herpes, by the way.
    • Carter_Drake
      Carter_Drake FelizCastus

      Posted

      Yes I figured that I have had it for longer than a couple of months. I think because of the stress I am about to have another one nearly in the same spot. The right lymph node in my groin is starting to swell. The prior pimple on my knee was centered right around the hair follicle. It was very sensitive to touch even walking with my pants rubbing against it hurt. I have never felt a pimple like that before.
    • FelizCastus
      FelizCastus Carter_Drake

      Posted

      Hmmm, if there's a hair follicle involved, then it's less likely to be herpes. You'd expect herpes lesions in the boxer shorts area, so from the waist down to the upper thighs, and most commonly in the genital region (and only in the genital region for a first outbreak; only recurrences have the potential to migrate to other parts within the boxer shorts area, but for many people, most stay close to the original site).
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