Unbreakable cycle of anxiety and IBS

I'm just going to write my entire experience with what I suspect is IBS paired with extreme anxiety down here and see what everyone else thinks of it. In late July, the 21st to be exact (I remember because it was my mom's birthday), I went to the hospital because of a week long bout of constipation. I didn't pass a single stool that entire week. I just physically could not do it. I was given some x-rays and prescribed a bowel prep laxative that I took later that day. To make it short, it was an extremely arduous 9-hour long process that drained me physically, mentally, and emotionally. I remember crying and snuggling into my mom's bed that night because I was just so miserable. 

The following morning I woke up feeling sluggish, nauseated, and full in the belly. It felt like something was swimming around in me, like contractions but they weren't painful. I went to the hospital again three days later and got more x-rays, and the doctor told me I was still full. He told me to take magnesium citrate. That was also an unbearable ordeal but not so unbearable as the first treatment. That didn't seem to work either. So, I visited my normal doctor and got yet another x-ray, where they showed me the scans personally and determined I was not full as the hospital doctor said, but I did have a lot of gas. I had a massive panic attack when I got home from that appointment, as I'm terrified of x-rays and I'd had a lot done. I was inconsolable for a week after that.

Then, I had another bout of constipation. I was so drained and exhausted that I just went to my normal doctor again. She told me that MiraLax would probably work best, and it did. I cleared out in just under two days and I felt pretty good for a little while. I also finally calmed down about my x-rays, and convinced myself that it wasn't that bad.

But then, it got worse. I started having regular cramps, and bouts of chest pain and an immovable lump in my throat. I started getting dizzy, I got more and more frequent headaches, and I started worrying about each and every medical condition on the planet. To date, I've self-diagnosed multiple types of cancer, a brain tumor, an ulcer, a prolapsed colon, gangrene, heart failure, appendicitis, and many more. This worrying seems to have really set off my symptoms as they seem to be bothering me more these days.

Now, four months later, I sit here worried to go to sleep because I'm legitimately afraid I will not wake up. The idea of sleeping puts a dark pit in my stomach and it's been like this for a long time. It feels like there's a heavy weight in my stomach, and sometimes I'll get a stabbing pain right in the center, which I have Googled (against everyone's wishes) and have convinced myself is something that's going to kill me, because all terrible diseases seem to start with pain behind the navel. 

My digestive symptoms worsen my anxiety, and my worsening anxiety makes my digestive symptoms worse, and it's just a big horrible cycle that I just can't break no matter how hard I try. I can't concentrate on anything anymore, I have regular panic attacks because of all the x-rays I've gotten in my chest and abdominal region, I get tension headaches sometimes multiple times per day, and I'm so convinced I'm going to die that when I make plans I think to myself, "if I'm still alive to be there." I sincerely don't know what to do and I need help but I don't know where to start. 

Has anybody else had an experience similar to mine? 

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