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Hello everyone is like to say a specially big hello to those of you who have replied to my previous with some fab advice and for those who have private messaged me. It makes such a huge difference to me in ways people may probably not realise. I'm very gratefull.
I'm slowly getting over the bug I had and while it has definitely altered my woozyness and imbalance, I'm no where near as bad as I was a few days ago.
I've managed to do a few 'normal' things this morning and for the first time I am spending a day on my own, as I used to. Sounds ridiculous but since February and after contracting a virus that left me with constant vertigo like symptoms, I've been afraid to be on my own...this was due to the soul fact that I was convinced I had a brain tumour and I was frightened that if I was left alone I could die... This is a terribly upsetting and embarrassing admission.
I've also come to see that these are intrusive thoughts and I've been able to link them to my OCD. I think my woozyness scared me so much that suddenly all my anxiety hit me like a tidal wave.
So today I am on my own. I have finished my household chores. I notice that at the beginning of my morning (from the point I wake and get up,) that the woozyness and my vision are more or less normal. I did feel oddly warm this morning (have been feeling this since my virus started a few days ago,) I'm also very snotty (sorry!!)
As I go about my business I notice the woozyness comes on until my vision feels effected. It's a little like watching things slowly move or warp.
But I did not let it frighten me and instead I've sat down with a cup of tea and it has eased a lot.
I feel quite happy to be on my own and am planning for a few nice activities I enjoy (such as reading etc,) for later.
I have another doctors appointment within the next week and she has said she may in some tests just to ease my mind - so I feel things are a little more in hand, now.
Sorry for the update... I don't really know if anyone is interested - I have been reading a few other people's posts that I feel relate to mine and so I always like to read about their progress. Perhaps someone may feel the same about this.
Also... Itching has stopped. Just feel very warm and sinusy but this is an improvement. Definitely.
Take care all x
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helen20833 Sillymop
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Hi Mopsy
I am delighted you are coping so well dear
As I said to you in an earlier post the symptoms can be dealt with utilising self-help methods. It is the fear of the symptoms we must overcome
You deal with your fear of the symptoms in an excellent manner. You did not allow them to throw you into the fear abyss! Bravo. You took control with quiet confidence and you were rewarded by the symptoms easing
It's always good to hear of positive progess, no matter how big or small. It ignites confidence in those who are locked into negative thinking.
Well done!
Helen
Sillymop helen20833
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Thanks Helen yes it feels very different when I look at how I'm feeling differently... If that makes sense.
The symptoms are still there but not in a way that makes me feel like I can't function with them.
I popped out and treated myself to a few bits, too which is something I never do X
helen20833 Sillymop
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Yes, treats
Everday should have an hour where you indulge yourself. Be it lolling in the bath, curling up with a good book, a walk, a big bar of choccie....it's not what you indulge in that's important. It's something to look forward to, focus upon with anticipation, a diversion from stress that's vital
Keep going forward Mopsy xx
Anxious_Nick Sillymop
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Yay SillyMop! Small steps friend, small steps. I'm so happy that you're making progress and trying to fight through your feelings and get stuff done. Some days will be worse than others, but if you can work towards getting your normal stuff done - like house chores, reading, taking walks, whatever your routine is - then you can feel a sense of accomplishment. I'm proud of you!
Best Xxx
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