Used to cut myself are having thoughts of hurting myself and right now I really want to
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so 18 years ago my Grandad died and I ended up with depression have suffered with it ever since I used to cut myself on a daily basis since his death from the age of 12 up until I was 16 I tried to kill myself when I was 19 as well so the doctors took away the tramadol and gave me something else instead so that I couldn't overdose on tramadol the physical side of things I'm in constant pain daily with my hips back wrists knees and now ankles yesterday my wrist gave out on me just by holding a plate so things haven't been easy with everything ive had go on in my life and specially in the last 2 years has been he'll everything from my nan having a stroke my auntie dying my eldest daughter and mum in a car accident me being assaulted and now being harassed as well as a few other things I find it's left me having constant thoughts of self-harming and what to use I found myself being left feeling like I'd be better off dead this time round now all I can think about is burning myself I don't know what im really asking here or what for maybe it's just to get it off of my chest I don't know as I have no one I can talk to I'm all on my own where I am I'm very isolated which doesn't help I'm too scared to even tell the doctor's how really feeling and what's going through my head as I feel they end up sectioning me and I really don't want to be like my nan and end up getting sectioned
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lloyd32048 toni07149
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yep alot on your plate think no one is good enough or qaulified to help thats the problem like to think of a sensible thing but your best bet and truly they have the specilest at hand to help you if in england that is samaritins e-mail them lad tell them and they will e-mail you back.
talk it through with them as they can fly at your issues with an some backing of others to help you in the right direction .
lloyd32048
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meaning no one on here is qualified so just to make you realise you can be helped but it needs a proper phycologist and phyciatrist, now nothing wrong with seeing a Phycologist or phyciatrist as ADHD ME they just iron out why you are as you feel they will tell you to hop it when they have sorted you out my ADHD Phyciatrist doesnt want to see me ever again laughing out loud but as rattle away , but like i say E-mail the samaritins and they will send you down the right road. no reason for you to be that up set with your self and you shouldnt be blaming your self,
so thats about as far as i can mathodicaly tell you to do, stop trying to understand somthing which is not possible to work out ,it will cook your noodles E-mail the samaritins 😃 good luck
pew toni07149
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hello - please dont ever feel u have no one to talk to i have had serious mental health issues since childhood and have just had my worst two years ever - please just message me and talk before doing anything to harm urself i have been hospitalized through suicide attempts and been in units to try and help me i have an amazing psychiatrist now and if i can just be that someone u can lean on to help message me. i too struggled to talk to anyone and unless its something u have personally experienced these feelings its difficult. someone who understands makes all the difference.