Very confused
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I have always suffered from depression, few suicide attempts and every day is a dark day, i was diagnosed with hypothyroidism 10 years ago and osteoporosis, 2 years ago i was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and sent to the pain clinic after many attempts with different meds to stop the pain and cramps (they left me unable to move, i lost my job through this as i was a phlebotomist and cramping while using a needle wasn't good so the nhs dismissed me on ill health, a few months ago i had to see a orthopedic surgeon and i had a break which didn't heal, arthritis and a bone spur so i needed surgery, the pain clinic said he couldnt help me but he would refer me to a psychiatrist !!! here is where the confusion starts, i spent an hour with him and a student, he spoke to me for 30 mins and asked me questions such as "does the tv speak to me" it does not, am i suicidal today, i'm suicidal everyday, do i see things or smell things to , yes i do, he then went on to tell me i have anxiety and i'm clearly having flash backs from traumatic events !!! i told him no i don't sleep due to pain and have to change my sleeping position every 30 mins, his reply "yes thats anxiety" !! he then went on to tell me the rheumatologist who diagnosed my fibromyalgia was wrong and there is no such thing, and that my dr's who have been treating my hypothyroidism for 10 years with a daily huge dose is also wrong and there is nothing wrong with my thyroid, he then went on to ask me did i really really need foot surgery !! and asked why i am also under maxo facial surgeons which is actually my dentist in the local hopspital due to my treatment with bisophosphates ( takes the calcium out of the jaw bones), he also questioned why i had throat surgery and was that also really needed ( i had a parathyroid tumor and salivary tumor) he has referred me to the ptsd team now, but in all honesty he had made me feel 100 times worse, do you think he was wrong in his treatment ? and the things he said and should i report it, i'm so confused
Thanks
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MrModdy phillybub
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Hi Phillybub
We note from a recent post which you have made to our forum that you may be experiencing thoughts around self-harm. If we have misinterpreted your comments then we apologies for contacting you directly. But if you are having such thoughts then please note that you are not alone in this, and there are people out there that can help.
If you are having these suicidal thoughts then we strongly recommend you speak to someone who may be able to help. The Samaritans offer a safe space where you can talk openly about what you are going through. They can help you explore your options, understand your problems better, or just be there to listen.
Their contact details are on our patient information leaflet here: https://patient.info/health/dealing-with-suicidal-thoughts, which also offers lots of other advice on how you can access the help you may need.
If you are having such thoughts then please do reach out to the team at the Samaritans (or the other people detailed in our leaflet) who will understand what you're going through and will be able to help.
Kindest regards
Patient