want to kill myself right now what do I do?

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Ive made a previous attempt and just got out of inpatient psychiatric hospital where I established I couldnt do it even if I wanted too. My flatmate just said im too emotional. Just confirmed what I already knew about myself that im weak and pathetic. I cant live with being this sort of person but I cant kill myself because I dont want her to feel guilty becaus she didnt mean to upset me was only speaking the truth.

I have no crisis plan in place and its night time so i cant go to my gp. I cant speak to my flatmate because ill only be proving her point that i am too emotional. And i cant ring samaritans because she will hear me.

I dont know what to do

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    Hello absjbs, it is because you are not in a very good place at the moment particularly with your suicidal thoughts, that you really do need to get in touch with Samaritans very urgently.

    You do not have to phone Samaritans if that is a problem, you can contact them by email or text.

    Please look up the following link which you will find helpful:


    If the link doesn't work, just Google Samaritans and all their contact details will be shown.

    They will listen to you.


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      Their text number isnt working on my phone. I feel so alone I have no coping strategies for when I feel like this im just left to suffer until the morning. Dont worry I wont kill myself I havent got it in me and couldnt do that to my friends and family. Apparently thats enough for the cmht to discharge me and leave me to my own devices even though I feel worse now than I ever have
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      You have lots of friends on this forum absjbs who can and will help you, so you are NOT alone.

      I know that it is difficult, but try to get some rest tonight, and tomorrow once people start to wake up they will be there to help you along your way.

      Please believe this - never ever give up absjbs, because things always get better in the end.

      I know, because I've been there.

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    Hi, dear absjbs, please, please call the SAMARITANS now. And first thing in the morning contact your mental health team... okay as you say, your are too cowardly to kill yourself...please, please, please. Please..do not ever think that you are weak or useless, or any less deserving of happiness and peace of mind than ANYONE else...

    Have you no family you can turn to? Could you not awake your friend even just to talk to for a little while?

    First thing in the morning , you must !!! Contact your mental health team and tell them exactly just how low you are feeling...they have a duty of care towards you and you are obviously suffering from severe depression that needs more help than you are currently receiving...

    I too was sectioned four times and felt as though I did not deserve to live....two years after MUCH treatment and counselling I am a different person totally .you can be too xx

    Do not ever, ever, ever think that you are worth less than anyone else, you are a unique individual who deserves a happy and fulfilling future as much ( if not more after your struggle. ) as anyone else...

    Make today a new start and think ..today is the first day of the rest of my life xxx and that old adage really rings true.....IT IS ALWAYS DARKEST BEFORE THE DAWN .. is wish you MUCH HAPPINESS and PEACE OF mind... big hugs to you, Deirdre xxxx

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    Hello Absjbs, I cannot add anymore to what Archmedes and Deirdre have said please listen and act on their advice. You deserve happiness and lots of us have been where you are right now. It is not an easy battle but believe you will win over this awful time and you will recover, so please reach out for help. Keep in touch with this forum as we all care about you. 


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    I hope that, now morning is here, you are feeling more positive and that you are taking the good advice from the people who replied on here.

    Big hugs, thinking about you.

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