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Hi guys, it's been quite a while I haven't been here. But I remember everything I have been through for almost two years and how you all helped me when I thought I was about to die or go crazy. I wanted to write this to give all of you hope that you can beat what is occupying and controling your life, like I did. I got rid of panic attacks and what's left from my anxiety doesnt control me any more. I CONTROL It Now.
I stared with sport. I made myself go out and run. It was terribly difficult to do,To run like crazy when you have pain around your heart. I just made myself believe that even if I'm going to die it not gonna be alone at home, around my kids. I got it into my mind that even if I die it's going to be fighting. I was also taking pills during that time which was Atarax, sobril (benzo) mirtazapine, paraflex. Like all of you I have tried a lot of medication. Some of them sent me directly to the emergency room breathless. Now I take only 15 mg mirtazapine 1 hour before sleep.
After doing sport for about 2 months, all of a sudden all pain around my heart, chest disappeared. Doctor explained and it sounds logical that my muscles got strong and my puls is more stable now cos my heart pumps more blood by each beat.
Second step was to go out and be around other people more and I did it by forcing me, God knows it was not easy. It was actually going to hell and back. It took time but was worth it. It includes going to the swimming pool with kids, parks meeting other perants and so on. Basically I learnt to occupy my mind 24 hours a day. Work, sport, kids, friends, all this helped me to bring my life back. I can't say I'm 100 percent the same person as I used to be before anxiety got me, but I'm definitely back by 85 percent for sure. I know we all are different and I know many of you will say it won't work, but if I can give hope for even 2 of you, I'll be happy. Just belive you can find your way out. I know it's possible now))).
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