Week 5

Hi-me

You know I've been on these about 6 weeks now, and I've had a really dodgy stomach all week - Im not sure if it's these or not. I also never get headaches, but have had a bit of a bad head every day this last week.. It didnt cross my mind that it could be delayed side effects. I think you should go to your Dr to find out, maybe stick with it another couple weeks to see if they pass. That's what I'm going to do, as I feel they are more beneficial even if the stomach / head is delayed side effects.

Good luck though mate and hope you feel better soon

Suz x

Hi yeah its my nearly 5th week as well, I do suffer from bad headaches still really feel bad, and in the last week felt relly bad - just odd in my self, my thoughts all over the place in a good and bad way, hate taking these things still don't know 4 sure if they r really helping?

Hi,

I've been the same this week and I thought it was a lack of fluids. I've had poo sleeps every night this week, extra tiredness and stonking headaches every day this week too. I started Feb 4th so this is the end of week 6 I think. Just feels like a relapsed week, it's bizarre.

I think these pills do work, after all, we're all still here! They've just got a down side to them which is far outweighted by the positive effects.

Well, off to down a litre or so of water to quash this headache!

Glad its not just me (but not glad youre all suffering to)

Ang, my sleep this week has been terrible too, waking up every half hour, then after 3am ish I just cant get back to sleep. Im so tired.

I drink lots of water already, so I dont think its dehydration giving me the headaches. I always have had headaches for years, but these ones are different (hard to explain, but I just know) and the co-codamol usually will help when have one, but with these ones they hardly touch the pain, I keep taking too many to just see if they will go away.

I cant stop gritting my teeth together either, which prob doesnt help the aches!

Who'd have thought a little tablet could mess us up so much - yuk. I feel like Im betraying my body every time I take it, becasue I know its gonna hurt.

Suzisue, think Im gonna stick it out some more too, then go back to my doc if it gets nay worse.

Hope you all feel better soon x

Well Im on week 10 and i know that i felt the ame as you guys back on week4-8 ish.

I was having headaches, dizziness, shakes... it wasnt unbarable but not very fun all the same, especialy when you're trying to motivate yourself for job applications/interviews and lack of all this is part cause for the depression anyway!

but week 10 most of the side effects have passed, occasionally i get dizzy spells/spinning feeling.

the main thing i have been experiencing that past couple of weeks is really vivid and really quite strange dreams. My sleep is affected and it takes me ages to drift off, yet im always tired!

Its been annoying me too as i wanted to get more into a routine for starting work (hope to anyway).. yet the only time i feel awake in the mornings is if ive been pissed the night before and had a late night. this is making wonder whether just alcohol might help!

i dont really mean that but it is frustrating when you want/need to get up nd ur so tired and cant wake up properly..then when ive had less sleep and really want to be asleep i cant!

I feel somewhat like the drugs arent doing very much, that they generally make me not give a sh*t about the things in my life.. so i ignore them, even though i know i have to deal with them as they will only make me worse (im talking dealing with financial problems, debts, jobs etc).

I am also still crying, less than i was for sure... as in not everyday. but when i get hit by it all i stay down for the day/night and it takes a lot to pull myself out again. Ive also been self-harming which i'd put a stop to for over 4 years...so ive disappointed myself further but i try to think that at least its not worse, even though i want to.

I dont know anymore, the drugs seem to have just become something i have to take everyday, but i still dont know if they are actually making me improve or not.

SJT, have you discussed anything with your GP recently, about the way you've been feeling? i.e. the self harming? Maybe worth discussing it with them if you don't think this medication is working for you?

I can definitely relate to not caring about certain things anymore. I'm lacking a lot of motivation. Sometimes I get into work and think to myself 'I really can't be bothered to do anything!', and have to force myself to get going. I'm sleeping far too much as well, but still feeling tired and yawning constantly throughout the day. I just feel so spaced out all the time!

I've booked an appointment to see the doctor in a couple of weeks, seriously debating whether I still want to be on these tablets. But who knows, maybe I'll feel much better by then!

No i havent, havent had an appointment in a whil and not one booked for a while again yet as it seemed i was aking progress. but i think im doing my usual cover up of 'im ok'.. well, sometimes i do feel 'okay' and then i just ose it. like tonight, im drunk, have smoked (managed to quit for over a month) and have self harmed once again.

I just feel like giving up all again, last time i felt like this was before i started the drugs, and i trashed my room... got myself so drunk that i coldnt do anything. then the next day i went home.

I miss my ex girlfriend, and all my other support has gone.

im lost and i want to be found, but the one person who found me and let me show all this in the first place gave up on me after all their promises of support. i cant keep doing this, i feel like i want to be locked up forever. im sick of my own head.

Hi SJT

I know exactly where you're coming from, have been to the place you are at. Not with the self harming - although I guess OD - ing is just as bad. To feel that low is the worst place to be in the world. I don't know what to say to you to help you. It is so hard when you feel so alone - being on here helped me so much. I know what you mean when someone you cared about lets you down so badly, and you can't believe they would say they love you, and then just walk away. It took me about 3 years to really get through my ex leaving me. I was gutted. I couldnt breathe, but you are strong, or you wouldn't be on here, and taking these pills - it's proof that you want to help yourself. Please please please go to your Dr - please - and confide in the Dr about what you have started to do again - you need the support, and some Drs are very caring and supportive (honestly they are) Maybe if you could get your name down for some counselling it may help to talk about it, and also you can talk on here - there are so many caring people on here, and we all feel pretty similar really. One minute you think you're going to be OK, and the next, you fall in to the pit of darkness again and again.

Life is so hard sometimes, especially facing it alone. I've been totally alone, and I promise I do understand how you must be feeling. That's why I know you MUST make an appointment next week (as soon as possible) with your Dr. I know you wont believe it now - but your life will turn around, you never know what is around the corner. You have to be strong, and even put on an outward 'act' to get you through, go to your Dr and let us know how you get on.

You may need a bigger dose - or maybe to change the pill - but just go and see what they say, they are the professionals, and unless you tell them something is very wrong babe they wont know.

Sometimes it's our own fault we feel so alone - cos we dont tell anyone how we are feeling - I know cos I do that. I make myself lonlier, when Im beginning to realise, even by chatting on here, that you dont have to be alone.

Just keep chatting on here - go and see your Dr, people do care, I promise, even when you think they don't, they do. There are some good souls out there still in this rat race. I KNOW there are.

Now go and do something about seeing your Dr - stay strong babe.

We're here for you tooo xxxxx