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I am in England, and have 4 sessions of CBT left, I feel like it has gave me a better understanding of my depression and provided tools to help deal with it, however, I feel worse now than I did before starting.
I feel like I should be getting better as I am doing CBT and on medications, but I am not and I feel like I will/have let my therapist down.
I remember when I was first diagnosed about 6-4 years ago I was given a leaflet about CBT and I read it, but I felt it was not for me as it more focuses on the now and not the past, so to me a lot of my depression comes from the past (this is what I have found out in the CBT) and having CBT was like having a plaster on a wound. But this year, I was fed up of feeling down and would give it a chance.
I have learnt techniques and been provided tools to help me with the depression and to help challenge the negative thoughts which I can do. I am able to Identify certain thought groups in my head, and to notice I am ruminating but I can not seem to break through and be "happy"
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