what's should I do ? Is it susiced thought ?

Hey there Roby. I would give it more time for sure. This stuff really works but you have to give it time----lots of time. I felt really crappy for the better part of 4 months but I feel much better now. Have you tried accupuncture? I did and it helped also. Unfortunately where i'mbfrom it can get expensive. But try to give it more time and eead the different posts that are here. I think the majority of the ppl here have felt like you are feeling and most are feeling better after giving it time!!!!!!

Roby

I was ill for 15 years, and within 6 months of being on these meds I recovered.  They will work for you.  I recovered on 20mg.

What you're feeling at the moment is perfectly normal.  You're recovering, and your mood will be up and down for a while yet.  Some days you'll feel,like you've just turned a corner and this are looking up, and the next you'll back down again.  It's how the meds work.

Youll get side effects every time you increase or decrease your dose.  I'd stay on 20mg for a while now so your body gets used to it.  Too frequent increases and decreases will make your body feel all over the place.  Whatever dose you're on, you'll still go through the same process of recovery.  A higher dose doesn't necessarily bring recovery to you any quicker either.  However ...... you've come a long way already and recovery is there waiting for you.  I was in the same boat as you once - I could not endure the pain and terrifying feelings for a moment longer ..... but I carried on and eventually I recovered.  

Count  T recovery in months, not weeks.  As each month goes by there'll be small changes.  It will happen.

Scary thoughts are a side effect of the illness.  This isn't you, it's because you're ill.  The meds can exaggerate your symptoms temporarily, but they will ease off in time.  You get caught in a cycle of depression - anxiety - negative or scary thoughts - and so on and so on, all feeding off each other.  The meds will break that cycle, and will relieve the depression and so the anxiety and thoughts too.  I was very scared when I was ill.

Your sleep will return in time.  Ask you doctor if you can take melatonin tablets - melatonin is what makes us sleep.

At the moment you can't see an end to this because you're stuck in the dark place, but believe us when we say it will get better, you will get out of this, you will feel happy and anxiety free again.  We've been there in that dark scary place, and these meds have helped many of us recover.

If you're feeling suicidal, please talk to someone and do tell your doctor.  I was exactly like that and I did take an overdose once and rang the Samaritans.  I was quite ill following that episode and was a complete mess.  This was all before I started these meds.  These meds really do work.

Just keep going on the 20mg.  Push on through everything, however bad you feel.  Remind yourself you're recovering and it will get better.  Keep posting on here as everyone will help you.  You're not alone.

K xx