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The past six days I have been feeling excessively tired but unable to sleep. Monday evening I started to feel like my mind was on fire though come the evening I started to become ravaged by feelings of having this deep feeling inside leaving me feeling empty, numb and void of any emotion to the point where I could not care if I live or die, this has left me feeling life is not worth it anymore and now I just feel, wish I was no longer here. Last night the feelings became too much to bare and I done something I have not done in over four years but the pain deep inside became so overwhelming I ultimately took a razor to my arm. I didn't make small incisions, I carved words into my arm. In the past the pain of cutting and sight of my own blood made me feel alive again but last night I just felt nothing, no pain, no emotion, no anything so I am now at the point where all I want to do is fall into a deep sleep from which I will never awake from by any means necessary. I feel i am just a drain on society, an embarrassment to and a failure to my family.
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