When will I feel me again...

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I've had depression and anxiety for 6years, I'm 24 and the last 6months have been hell.

I guess I have has a busy year with getting married, honeymoon and a new job but that's all great things for me. I'm in a state of shock that I cannot cope anymore, last night I said to myself alone "I can't do this anymore" in someways it was a suicidal thought but my husband and family keep me strong.

I'm on citalopram 20mg a day, which isn't high and propanlol of 30mg, I also have lorazepam which helps with panic attacks. I think now my anxiety is going mad, I have no wish to do anything but be in bed.

I was doing so well on my honeymoon but coming to the end I was going back down hill. I honestly can't do this anymore I'm not a strong person to cope with this anymore..

I do everything at night to relax but that's when I'm my worst, I do lavender, candles, hot bath and rain noises! Doesn't seen to be helping to much. If anyone could help me or advise it would be very helpful.

Thank you

Jem 

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    Hi jem. How did your anxiety start? I am now in 60s and started with anxiety at 16, similar to you. I too got married etc but could not cope with life ingeneral for whatever reason. I always felt ill, dizzy etc Was put on Valium and anti depressants. Not much good. To cut a VERY long story short, I suffered into my 40s when a had a good pychologist who got to the root of my problem that was worrying me. I didnt even realise i was bothered about this(my mom - bit of tyrant who had negative effect on my life) Im not saying its your mom, but once you come to terms with the identified cause you may become stronger. I sufffered from agoraphobia too. I do hope this helps. Take care
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      Hi brummiebabe

      It started with me at 16/17, so I started around the same age as you. 

      I'm on the waiting list for councelling but no idea how long I will be waiting!

      I would love to have someone who helped me just like you were helped.

      Thank you for your reply.

      Jemm

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    Hi Jemm sounds like you have a lot of stress at the moment which could be making thinks worse, I am not doctor but maybe it is time for a medication change or up the does on medication. Do you see a family doctor or a physiatrist? The reason why I ask is because a Physiatrist really know how to twick medication to make them work. Also what brummiebabe is saying makes a lot of sense too I would try both.
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      Hi Ray06999

      I went to my doctors this morning as I was on 20mg of citalopram now up to 40mg. I went in guns blazing and completely upset but they didn't help as normal. 

      I shall try and see physiatrist also, I shall look into this!

      Thank you for your comments, most helpful

      Jemm 

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      Hey Jemm good for you I really hope you really start seeing a difference in the next four weeks but if not ask to see a physiatrist I have one. Just for the record I did try citalopram work for me for a bit but after a while it kick out and had to go on paxil 40mg something to think about.
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      Sorry to hear your not feeling good. I know just how that is.  I think you need to see a psychatrist but you will have to be referred by your gp. I'm not on the same medication as you so I can't comment on that. But just to know people on here who are going through depression and anxiety helps. 
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      Thank you- my GP this morning has just up my doses and said I can have CBT but I'm on a waiting list for that- look at a fee months apparently, there really isn't a lot of help out there for people who suffer with this...

      Thanks Kat50. Jemm 

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      Jemm,  I would ask your gp to refer you. It can take a while. I went to see a private psychatrist first as the wait was too long to see one on the nhs. Eventually I got to see the nhs one and that's who I see now.  She put me on different meds and I'm praying that they will start working soon. 
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      That's really interested, I have a check up in 2weeks so I'm going to speak and ask then, I cried saying I want help but you just don't get anywhere. Thank you smile
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      I have had help and it's ongoing but I did have to wait. I think if you do see a psychatrist then it will definately help you. I know exactly how you feel. 
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