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Right , I have been on AD's since early Dec. Sertraline , then Mirtazipine added , chanegd to Venlafaxine , now on Citlalopram 40mg. I suffered with Depression in my late teens / early 20's then managed without meds until late 2014. But due to numerous things happening in the past and recent past everything got on top of me.
I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety. This has caused me to have a lot of time off from work, although im back now on normal duties and I struggle with day to day tasks , Not many people know about my situation , just a handful of people . I ve always managed to hide stuff from them . But im finidng it increasingly more difficult , but i just canttalk to people - which im sure most will understand.
Ive done a course of cbt and im waiting on counselling. My company are good and they are supportive but i still feel im very vauge about what i tell them and that i need to be more open ?
My reason for posting is , even after all this time , im still struggling with tiredness ,insomnia and struggle so much in the evenings mainly , i suppose its because during the day i have to focus on my child , school , work , etc then bam the evenings hit me like a brick. .... i start going over and over stuff from the past , and cant snap out of it , Keep questioinong whether something that happened to me was wrong or not and its driving me mad . !
then with the anxiety thrown in too its just too much , panic attacks are less frequent but still 2-3 p/w. Sometimes completely out of the blue , soemtimes i can just ' feel it ?' on edge and panicky all day then it hits me.
I just dont know what to do / where to turn now
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