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dondons
dondons

Life is a blessing? No! Life is a horrible nightmare, a struggle everyday! Speaking of nightmares...some would think that sleep is a distraction/a way of forgetting? An escape? But what if you tried so hard every night to sleep and if you were successful your dreams were horrible? Maybe even more so than reality? If I tried to explain them to a “normal” person they’d probably think I’m mad! Honestly? If I were to say it out loud I’d think I’m mad too! Why is explaining, trying to make/help people understand only make me seem more unstable/crazy? 

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  • CodenameX
    CodenameX dondons

    Posted

    You're not crazy, right now my heart is going 300 beats a second and I'm literally shaking in fear because I have to go to work in 15 minutes. Medication doesn't help unless it makes me completely dead inside and I know what you mean, I avoid sleep now because of the nightmares, I get about an hour or 2 every night.  The helpful thing I can say if its considered helpful is that you're not crazy, or alone. I know what you're feeling, i literally typed in google "depression is killing me" and got here. I'm going to work now, where i get told what a useless nothing I am at least once every 20 minutes and I can barely breathe from the panic attacks, but if you'd like to talk later, even to compare war stories, I'll check back. Maybe even fill in the rest of my profile thing. 

  • hypercat
    hypercat dondons

    Posted

    Hi Dondon I too have nasty dreams regularly.  I know it's a side effect of the sertraline but they are awful and they really shake me up.  I try to ignore them and carry on as normal.

    Maybe you are trying too hard to sleep as well?  If I can't sleep I get up and put the telly on or read a book etc.  Then when I feel tired I return to bed.  This can be difficult if you are working but I don't think you are?  x

    • dondons
      dondons hypercat

      Posted

      My dreams/nightmares aren’t a side effect of my meds I’ve had them since forever! I Remember all

      Of them but If I were to tell people they would think il

      Crazy! Some will sound ridiculous to others but affect me a lot! There’s something about dreams that mean more/ affect more to the person. To tell a story could sound horrible but to live it/dream it is so much worse yet if you even tried to explain it you’d be labelled crazy! People do not realise how real/how bad/ how much some dreams can affect people 

    • hypercat
      hypercat dondons

      Posted

      Bad dreams are bad dreams regardless of the cause of them.  This doesn't lessen the effect after all.  I have been having them on sertraline for around 7 years now.  I used to have some before as well.

      Dreams no matter how bad are just that - dreams.  They shouldn't be allowed to take over your life or assume such importance in your life.  I have too much to do to dwell on my nightmares too much. 

      Also I think counselling could help you a lot if you would let it!  Sometimes you are your own worst enemy!  x

  • carmela45627
    carmela45627 dondons

    Posted

    The nightmares may be due to anxiety and stress. It sounds like you need to see a dr. For meds. And maybe a therapist to talk to who understands you. We do not judge here . We only try to help and guide. We have all been through it. Please seek medical help . They will know exactly what to do to help you sleep and feel better. If the people that you talk to don’t listen or blow you off, don’t talk to them about it. Only talk to the experienced and professionals. You can always come back here to vent and say what you need to say to help you . This is your safe place.
  • dondons
    dondons

    Posted

    Everyone knows always people watching taking notes trying to unwind intrude thoughts for their own Benefit I’m not prepared to be scrutinised by people that have no undery
    • carmela45627
      carmela45627 dondons

      Posted

      Do you mean the drs are always taking notes? If so, they need to do that they can look back and see what exactly is going on. They see many patients, so they need to take notes. It sometimes does feel intruding, but that is how they find out the information and answers they need to treat you. Nightmares are very scared. They can make you not want to sleep. But if you could talk through them to a professional this could help you. The professionals would not think that you are crazy and they would not judge you. They would help you to see why this is happening to you.
  • CodenameX
    CodenameX dondons

    Posted

    Hey, in my dreams everything is perfect. I'm not alone, I have friends, money and everything and everyone i've lost is happy and perfect.  Then i force myself awake and realise its all a lie, and i'm torn back into reality, completely alone and facing a living hell daily. In essence my life is the nightmare and I'm scared to sleep because its too good, I wake up screaming and crying to get back into the dream, away from this "reality" i find myself in. Trust me nothing you could say would make me think you're crazy, nothing I haven't done myself. I'm not a doctor.  I'm not scrutinising you in the least, i simply stumbled onto your post, the internet is a big place.  I think what I'm trying to say is You are not crazy.  The fact you can still tell crazy from sane makes you sane. I will agree, when the panic attacks kick in and the pain is at its worst it feels like madness.  Its just your brain sparking in the wrong way, sending signals ass backwards and we decipher the signals in a primitive fight or flight reaction.  Side note?  The more meds you use to sleep the more hardcore your dreams are since you don't dream on meds. Just something to think about. I'm going to climb back into my hole of apathy now. g'night.

  • dondons
    dondons

    Posted

    I’m sorry I can’t reply to eachcomment separately not much gets into my head anymore and what does Is hard to disect/understand. Seems all the know and hear are my thoughts to end the thoughts probably makes no sense doesn’t much to me either but what matters does 
  • dondons
    dondons

    Posted

    I’m sorry for this Post x
  • dondons
    dondons

    Posted

    Been drinking abs but drunk now is easier.  Now   
  • CodenameX
    CodenameX dondons

    Posted

    Sorry i was AWOL for so long, I never check my emails since I usually don't get any.This seems like a very difficult way to try and have a conversation. Let me know how you're doing though.

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