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i have just come in from an informal gathering of my friends to practice the Ukelele, and what did I do nothing but hurt myself. Not physically but certainly mentally and now I am regretting it and wishing I was dead. I have got a stash of tablets and an empty house for the night. Don't worry I probably won't do anything.
i just wouldn't join in because they all go to a pub to practice with another group and I haven't been because I felt I couldn't cope with people who are really good. My friends and I only started by chance about 8 months ago but I was really struggling even with them. I felt stupid with my friends so how I would have gone on with people I don't know. The upshot of this post is that my friends now know a lot more chords than me, but I still wouldn't join in even though they started with music I knew. I just sat there and regretted my decision but felt I couldn't start playing. I am always doing this to myself refusing to join in then regretting it. I just don't seem to help doing this to myself .i do it quite a lot. I know it is wrong and not helping myself, but it is as if I like hurting myself.
can anyone relate to what I am saying, I feel I have a mental health diagnosis / condition and mentioned this to my GP quite a while ago, but there has never been any reference made to the diagnosis again. I have never told anyone else and I don't know what can be done if what I suspect is true.
i do have a psychiatrist but only seen him once, waiting for counselling again and to see him again in about 3 weeks.
Any replies will be read. Thanks you are all so supportive to each other I hope you can be to me.
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