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I had some CBT counselling earlier this year and after 4 sessions the person i was seeing decided to end the CBT as i was finding it hard to deal with it ( not very chatty until i feel at ease ) , not entirely her fault though she should had been a bit more understanding and i blame myself for letting her down , anyway that was then , i had always been told i could return for treatment of some sort and i was told that a different place could be arranged like my surgery as i knew there was no way i could return to the building where i went before , well it is well known that my depression went down hill rapidly so i recently approached Dorset Health Care asking them for help as i didn't know where to turn to , the place i went before just made my anxiety worse, they very kindly got in contact with a distant neighbouring town who are also part of the Mental Health Treatment programme to see what they could do , a lady there got back to me via phone ( i cannot talk on the phone unless it is family or friend ) , she explained that i could go there for treatment but i cannot afford travel coast ( about a hour travel ) so i explained that i couldn't talk on phone - my anxiety was getting up badly , was shaky , etc so she told me that she would email me back after she had had a chat with the person in charge of the programme here , told her that it should be on my record what happened last time , etc , so she said that she would see what they could do to help , anyway that was all sorted , and it was on my record that they would have to email me rather then phone . So that i thought would be okay , felt i could get the courage up when i got letter or email informing me of appointment . this afternoon i got a call - no number so i thought it might had been my surgery as i had been round there this morning to request a sick note and they were ringing me to say it was ready , but no it was what i assume a receptionist from the Mental health , etc place letting me know about an appointment for next week , so i tried telling the person that they were not supposed to ring me as it was on my record but she just ignored that by over speaking telling me about Wednesday , there i was saying that i cannot deal with this , still she ignored my speaking , then she told me that the appointment would be at a surgery that is not mine so then i tried to get her to understand that i could go to a place that i don't know and that it was supposed to be my surgery as i know that place i am okay in the there , still she spoked over me , basically it was either there or the actual place where i went before so i then tried to tell her that it is on my record that i cannot go there , my rant is why can't people pay attention to your record - read it , do what it says - says don't ring but email so do that !! , i am online a few times a day so i would had picked it up within minutes and i could had replied yes appointment is okay so please send out letter , that one phone call made me very shaky and cannot stop getting tearful and i had started the day okay for a change !
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nick34171 maria_1963
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maria_1963 nick34171
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anne240 maria_1963
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I so agree with all you say. A counsellor attached to my doctor's surgery (the one that double booked my appointment) told me that I was using anti depressants as a cruttch, as though it was a bad thing. Of course I was using them as a crutch. Something to prop me up when my mental health was bad.
I am so sorry about how they ignore you. I can only assume they are so busy they are pushed for time. Well I have had depression for over 20 years, all in Dorset, so I can sympathise with you. Just try and say to0 yourself that women was rude and unhelpful. But I feel for you and know I would also be tearful and upset. So bad that someone who is supposed to help us, makes us feel so wretched.
I do hope you get the help you need. Keep in touch, as I am not far away.
maria_1963 anne240
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anne240 maria_1963
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Yes my daughter was my rock thro9ugh all my years with depression, and that is why she wants to be a counsellor. She has a demanding full time job, and has to spend hours training to be a counsellor and it is costing her a lot of money too. So I can see the other side of the coin now. They are people who want to help people in mental distress, and like my daughter do three years training in their own time, and at their own expense.
Let us know how you get on on Wednesday.
maria_1963 anne240
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if i knew then i would say but i don't understand why or how it can be treated - get all confused by those questions , i also felt like a fraud as she asked me how i would cope if a stranger sat next to me on the bus and started talking to me - i told her that i would reply as i am not a rude person likewise if i was in a strange town then it wouldn't worry me as i don't mind open spaces what i don't like is being cooped up in a poky room etc like the place where my local steps 2wellbeing programme is - in a porta cabin , all closed in with you being able to hear people walking around - the floor vibrates , and i pokey little rooms where you see the therapist hence why i had to see someone else where as i panic going any where near the place, building . Well i felt useless but she reassured me that i had done okay and that she would go back to her team and discuss what would be best treatment also contact the CMHT and get them involved as well and that she will get back to me by end of this week , maybe end of that day but difinetely end of the week which i took as this evening end of working week , so off i went very unsettled and now here i am none the wiser as i have heard nil from anyone and i am in a dreadful state as i feel like a fraud as some of the questions like i said i could answer eg talking ot stragers on the bus whereas i cannot speak to professionals on the phone , in person - takes a while to feel at ease those times but on a bus i am okay , relaxed as i am in a casual situation , so there we are - feeling totally useless .
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