Why is life so cruel?

You should be very proud of yourself that you are trying to help yourself deal with  of all this, its definetly a step in the right direction. It can be hard to ask for help, and you did it. Sorry to hear about that poor womans demise. Life is life we dont have much control of stuff, just of ourselves really. So at least you are doing whats best for you now. Feel better

Thanks Lisa you always have wise words x

Life is not cruel but uncertain. Surely tragedies happen and we can only imagine the grieve of your ex colleague's friends and family. 

We must try living every moment with hapiness, joy and peace.

Take care

I was officially diagnosed last week, having known I had an underlying "stress" issue I simply shrugged it off. It felt such a relief seeing the doctor.

From reading your post, I think the biggest challenge with any form of anxiety is over coming the whole fear factor and reminding yourself that it is one big mind game.

I have to remind myself that the negative thoughts and fear are just a thought process that will eventually even out. I've figured you have to be one step ahead and try to pre empt an attack or episode.

Try to focus on the positives in your life, family friends, occasions, I even scroll through pictures on my mobile gallery to remind myself how happy I really am in life and to prove there is no reason for me to feel fearful or anxious.

Stay strong and keep smiling