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Hey! I'm not feeling well. It's very bad actually... again. Last three days I'm feeling very anxious and paranoid to that point that can't stop crying and harming myself. I tried to overdose yesturday, but nothing happened. It all start suddenly, I'm feeling like everyone is hiding something from me and is against me and that many people know something awful about me that I don't even know and thats reason they are not friendly and reason I'm losing friends. I feel like I did things I haven't actually and that I'm evil. I feel like some people know exacly what I'm doing any time and it makes me so uncomfortable and paranoid. I feel like I'm being bullied too by strangers... I have so much rage in myself and very often cry and feel aggressive. And the worst thing is I feel that I deserve this and that I'm very bad person because people will behave other way If I was great. I really love people and want to help them and everyone told me I'm great friend but I feel guilt/shame very often to the point I want to kill myself. I don't think I will do this, but I feel that there is no help for me. I really want to feel well again. I don't want to go psycho because of people who don't respect me. I'm sleeping all day and all night and only cry and harm myself. I started feeling this way 2 years ago and I had good moments and very bad like right now but never completly get rid of. I was on sertraline but it didn't help at all.
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