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Hi All,
Just wanted to wish everyone a really Happy New Year. I know we are at various stages in our recoveries but never give up on hope.
My life has been one long battle with depression from my early teens.
I could blame my parents for neglect and physical and verbal violence.
I could blame my ex husband for beating me so many times it appeared normal to me.
I could blame the man who date raped me in 2005 after my divorce.
Thats not to say I am not angry over my past because I really really was.
But I turned that anger inwardly on to myself for not having a backbone or standing up for myself.
Peroids of depression ,suicide attempts, and a battle with an eating disorder later .
I am at a point where I am ready to deal with my past and move forward with my life.
This time last year I had planned to take my life and this year I am planning to begin it.
You all deserve better than your getting at this moment in time but things can and do get better.
Take care of yourselves
Jo
I can only learn to deal with it and not shy away from it
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julie1111 krollette66
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krollette66 julie1111
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there is a lot of taboo about abuse no matter what form it takes.
The same goes for mental illness there will always be someone judging you.
I think what you have to learn is acceptance of the incident and of yourself .
The thing that helped me was talking to someone who has been through the same thing whether thats depression, assault, abuse, etc.
I would prioritise whats most troubling you and deal with one thing at a time one day at a time
Everyone deserves to be happy in life and your no different to anyone else
Jo x
julie1111 krollette66
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krollette66 julie1111
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I can signpost you to that support if your ready and if your not Thats ok too.
Hold your head high and tell yourself you can come through it.
You dont Let anyone come between you and your recovery x
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I have spent many many years blaming myself for my past and continuing the cycle of abuse .
I get up sometimes and feel wretched and shut myself away other days I feel more positive and act accordingly.
I think we have to accept our negative days are the more extreme of normal but still normal all the same.
Last New Year I had convinced myself it would be my last...........what a difference a year makes
Sally you play your music till your hearts content if it helps who cares what others think.
Do whatever gets you through the night...and if your awake at midnight or not.
I will raise a glass to you and the other forum users.
2015 is a new year and New year for all of us
Jo xx
deirdre._03652 krollette66
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I have a wonderful brother.. twin sister...husband...THREE sons. One daughter, who is expecting a baby boy in April....
I truly, truly wish you the happiness and peace of mind that you deserve...keep strong, you are a remarkable person... Sincere regards to you..Deirdre xxx
krollette66 deirdre._03652
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I have been so touched by the response to my post it has given me incredible strength to keep moving forward
Our past is not our potential xx
Geeee krollette66
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sending faith and love your way,
-💋 Neea
elizabeth20203 krollette66
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