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I had an ultrasound today and although it shows nothing wrong,I cannot accept that I do not have something that has not been diagnosed.I am my own worst enemy because not a day goes by when I do not think that I have a terminal illness.I feel just as bad this evening as I did before I had the test.
I know that I look ill because I am very pale and very thin.I get too scared to look at myself because I feel as though I am disintegrating.I am unable to enjoy anything at all because I imagine that each day will be my last,so I hardly go anywhere any more for fear of collapsing.Most people on this site are much younger than me and seem to have family around.
It does not help that I am totally alone,and just very scared that I will never feel better.
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