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The title off this thread, honestly, is how I feel right now. Each time I feel like I overcome a symptom, rather than receiving some peace and quiet, something else happens and sends me off the boil again. The brain zaps, or the crawly sensation that I posted a topic about, they have gone, and they genuinely are not missed, because they were horrible. So, I had a couple of days where I felt good. Now, today, suddenly I have been experiencing numbness in my face, which is absolutely horrifying. Last night I was feeling anxious, and I caught myself drooling without realizing it, or I'll notice I'm accidentally spitting a little bit when I speak. My arms feel stiff, one of my shoulders is absolutely killing me. My neck's sore. I am so aware of EVERYTHING. The Mirtazapine helps me sleep, but the anxiety constantly has me fatigued. This CBT seriously needs to hurry up and get here.
The anxiety never lets up, not even for a second. And most of the time some of these symptoms arise when I'm at home, seemingly content, watching the TV. And because my anxiety stems from health, and worrying that something is wrong, when an anxiety symptom crops up, the worrier in me thinks it's something serious. If you could hear some of the things I have worried about having, from brain tumors to motor neurones disease, from MS to cancer, and I get annoyed at myself because there are poor souls out there that are genuinely suffer from these ailments. But, for me, it's not as simple as "just don't think like that" because that is where my brain goes every single time. I am constantly afraid that something is wrong with me, constantly. And I know that anxiety can cause just about any side effect you want it to, but there is always this little voice in my head that says "but what if it's something else?"
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