A Mysterious Shortness of breath

Hi, hope you're doing well. I'm going to tell you my story and thank you for your time.

So, I'm a medical student, and I was a representative of my class (which has 741 students). Every class needs 3 representatives, and they are called "BDE", which stands for "Bureau d'étudiants" or "Commission of students". All BDEs from all classes make up a commission.

It was a good experience and I wanted to try it, so I applied in my first year and failed, but I succeeded in my second year.

The BDE has an essential role, which is to represent the students in everything, especially problems. For example, when a professor wants to send a lecture to the students, we are the "Whatsapp" contact. When a problem happens, we are the ones who take action.

To be honest, I don't find this very rewarding. I only do a few tasks, and they are not very important. But everyone loves me.

I wanted to do so many things that would be helpful for my class, and not just send lectures and stuff. So that's what happened. I made incredible efforts, such as creating a guide for every material subject. Everyone really loved this. I also collaborated with other students to create MCQ banks, resumes, notes, and much more. In the end, I made a great and memorable effort, but fully exhausted.

The problem with all of this is that since I became a BDE representative, I have been lost. I don't know anything about life anymore other than the BDE. I just talk about it, break my fast with it, talk about it, have dinner with it, and sleep with it. I literally don't know anything about life because I'm spending all of my time on my class.

Before, I was a person who only had a limited number of friends. I didn't talk to many people unless I had to. But after becoming a BDE representative, I don't have a single minute to myself. I have to talk to everyone.

So all my efforts, time, and money have been wasted. The commission is also a bad and toxic one. No one has the courage to speak up, and a lot of things have happened. So I just go along with what the class wants.

But after a lot of situations, it was bad for me but not too much. And finally, after I failed an exam and started preparing for the retake, I finally realized that I was just lost, for nothing and for no benefit. So I made my decision, and I finally resigned from all of this.

I was preparing for the retake, and I got the highest grade since I started medical school. And finally, the academic year ended and it's summer vacation.

After I got out of all of this, I started to experience a physical condition that is not good at all. Imagine that if I turn on YouTube on my computer and watch any video whatsoever, this is normal for me and there is no problem. But when I watch videos related to studying or how to study or how to organize my time, I have shortness of breath without any other symptoms.

The problem is that I want to study in the summer, but I don't feel comfortable. To the point that one day I was in a cafe, and I put the computer and notebook in front of me, although I was playing with the computer, but I felt the same feeling and I felt a shortness that prevents me from breathing easily from that day till now, meaning more than a 2 month ago.

What I used to do a lot before was go to a cafe to study but full of smokers (a bad secondhand smoke). I also had a problem with jerking off, and only that. I don't think I've done anything other bad to me than this.

I have tried breathing exercises, but nothing has worked. I have also traveled and tried to forget all of these events. I have seen some doctors, one of whom said it was stress and gave me B12 supplements. I had a chest X-ray and an echocardiogram tests, and both were normal. I don't think I have anxiety or stress, and I don't have any symptoms related to GERD/Acid Reflux, or any symptom other than what I have told you in this story.

Another generalist doctor told me that I have a pharyngitis (which I don't think is the case), and gave me azithromycine pills, biomylase (Alpha-amylase), and B6 vitamin supplements. I took the medication and I felt normal, but today when I studied a little bit, the problem came back (I'm afraid of the idea that studying or something near to it has a relation with this issue because when I got good after taking sore throat medications, I kept playing with the computer in the same sitting position and with the same everything, but why is it different when I wanted to study now, I think that sometimes before I had the same problem even if I wasn't studying, but very rarely. But when the problem came back right after I studied, it has something to do with it, I really don't understand why the problem is psychological but I want to study and I don't feel anything bad about it, I want this field and I don't have any grudges against it.).

What I really feel is like there is a point in my chest that blocks my airways, so I have difficulty burping or yawning, and breathing of course. The sensation of burping or yawning comes to me a lot, such as (the feeling of sneezing but you don't sneeze), but I usually do it only with the help of food that escalates the gas or at certain times. So it's like the burps/yawn are stuck in somewhere in my chest. So when I felt normal after taking the medication for pharyngitis, I felt normal about the breathing, but the problem of burping/yawning was still existing.

I am really worried about this. I don't know what to do. I am afraid that this will affect my studies and my future. I would be grateful if you could help me.

Thank you so much for reading this.

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