Anxiety and the Super Bowl

The Super Bowl is on TV today. Maybe in 4 hours. My neighbors above me are SO loud, they jump up and down, shaking the things on my wall. They are screaming SO loud and like I said, the game hasn't even started. The woman has two teenage sons and it's the two of them that stay every other week that do it. She's quiet. She knows I can hear them when they get loud and that I don't like it. She just moved in a couple of months ago and I've been here years. I texted her once. " It's too loud, I really don't like it when I can't enjoy being in my own home" she wrote back "it's MY home too." I'm all for following your team, I am a nutcase at games, but in your home, disturbing your every thought, it's going to drive me crazy. I know the first think you'll suggest is go someplace during the game. Well, I just had a hip replacement and that's impossible. My dog is scared of loud noises too. I didn't start this until I began living alone. I'd think people were coming in the basement windows and sneaking up my steps.I put a lock on the outside of the door. When I drive a car, I can't have on the radio because I might not hear the sound of an ambulance or fire truck. I am scared when I drive that a child or dog is going to run out in front of my car if my mind isn't on task. I stay in my house most of the time. Netflix is my friend. I text people. But, if I hear a door slam or a horn honk, I instantly go into panic mode. 4th of July is horrible. Things like this about to happen, are really awful. I guess I can turn my TV up as loud as it will go to drown them out but darn, how noisy would THAT be? I try to think, what if I had a party, would I make people whisper and walk in socks? I think the people first, should invite you to join them, come down to at least explain that there will be some noise and apologize in advance. I know it won't kill me, that's what I keep sayin over and over. I'm trapped in the house, I don't want to bother friends with helping me walk or get in and out of a car, and add my dog. I wouldn't leave her at home and let her go nuts alone. I've thought ear buds and watch movies on Netflix on my laptop in a room far away from their noise. I guess I'll see if I can make it through the Super LOUD Bowl!!!! I have a startle response that's incredibly paralyzing. My older brothers used to wait and jump out behind doors to scare me and laugh. They's scratch on the screens of my bedroom to scare me. I'm not really sure how I started being so scared of noise. Does anyone else have this problem? 

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