Health anxiety and recreational user
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hi all , i joined here years ago and used to post about my health anxious questions . after two kids i became a hypochondriac but pre kids i used to party on weekends , i always hated speed but have consumed heaps of mdma be it through caps , pills or powder and in recent years ive dabbled in cocaine .
im 33 now yet still take every so often at an event with old friends . i am so thankful for my kids because i am so easily led and seem to say yes to a bathroom visit with friends whenever i have a drink in me . this year i have taken drugs about 3 times and its only february . i hated myself last time and cried here for days worrying i would catch something from sharing a coke straw . i had 4 lines on the weekend at my hens night and didnt share with anyone but for some reason im still concerned i will catch something , i took three small dips directly u my nose from my finger tip and one larger line with my own dollar bill yet here i am worried about germs and disease . when will i grow up? ! why am i so easily led holding on to my youth and why dont i ever learn this leason ? is this an addiction although it can sometimes be less than 5 time a year . -any advice from anyone the same ? i dont feel like its addiction but since 18 years of age ive probably had three years at most without having drug free year 😕
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