Hi just wondered if anyone else feels the safe
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How I'm feeling I'm sure is linked to my depression, i feel trapped in my job & feel overwhelmed constantly. I work in the healthcare sector as a hca, I kinda fell into this role after my mum passed away, I don't have any healthcare background apart from looking after my mum yet I must give the impression I know more, I hate the responsibility and always doubt my self. I don't think this is the right environment for me, I don't want to progress as a nurse or work in a different healthcare setting. I just feel so guilty and like I'm letting everyone down especially my team & husband,but I'm just not good enough in this role, I'm not good enough for anything, i feel I can't take things in or struggle to understand, I wish these feelings would go away?
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sharla_94860 Bid2012
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stevo1975 Bid2012
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Digsby Bid2012
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You have found an important caring role for yourself but there is a lot of pressure involved and it seems to me that you are placing even more pressure on yourself. What sort of feedback have you had from your manager and colleagues? Are there any colleagues that you can talk freely and openly with? It's OK to ask for help and advice if you are not sure but I'm sensing from your doubts that you really don't see your future in this role. Would you enjoy it more if you felt more confident in yourself and your own abilities? Sometimes that can just be resolved with some extra training and practice. The depression has obviously knocked your confidence a lot so we need to look at how we can help you to rediscover your self-worth. The contribution that you make in this life is a special and unique one :-) You are doing the best that you can and it's your own high expectations that you are not meeting. If you are feeling overwhelmed then someting needs to change for you to feel better; either something in your mind-set or something externally in what you are doing on a daily basis. I think the Occupational Health dept where you work might be able to offer you some support. Also, when I worked for the NHS, there was a free Employee Assistance Helpline which offered me some counselling when I needed it.
Be strong and decide where you would like your life to go. Life is a journey not a race. If there's something you don't like, you often have the power within yourself to change it. Good luck :-)