Lack of Deep Sleep - can’t tell if I’m sleeping? I’m exhausted.. help
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Hello everyone .. I’m seeking desperate help from people who have a similar experience or at least have an idea of what’s going on. Please read below…
About me: 26yr old female, never had sleep issues except when I suffered jet lag, usually fell asleep in 10 minutes. I suffer from anxiety and OCD but it never prevented me from sleeping.
The story:
I went to Italy to visit my family and it all went perfect until the nightmare began. The last day before I left Italy to go back home in the UK I bumped my head hard against a shelf. I don’t know but after I bumped my head, something switched in my brain and I started having a full blown panic attack thinking that I had damaged my brain somehow. My anxiety was over the roof and that night I was so scared of going to sleep cause I was scared that I was never going to wake up again. So as you can imagine I had an absolute sleepless night. I had recently heard a story of a woman bumping her head badly (falling from a ski accident) and feeling fine but then died in her sleep so I think that’s what instigated the panic mode.
(Ps: I went to the hospital 2 weeks ago to check my head and they said that there is no brain injury cause I had no signs of it so let’s rule that out..)
The day after, I went to Milan where I had to stay one night in a hotel. I was overall very agitated from the lack of sleep and I don’t know why I was unable to even nap on the train. I go to bed that night and I had another completely sleepless night. In the morning I go back to the UK and I thought that I was just nervous of the travelling and that once home I would be super relaxed and sleep like I always did! But no, I apparently did fall asleep but it was the weirdest sleep - I thought I was awake the whole time but in reality I look at the clock and it was 4am. Felt very weird cause I didn’t feel rested at all, my eyes were burning.. it was the lightest sleep
Since the episode that happened 3 weeks ago, I’ve been having horrible nights with zero deep sleep and I am having these episodes of me sleeping but feeling like I haven’t slept. Sometimes I fall asleep at night when I’m exhausted and then wake up Either 1-2 or 3 hours later and I feel like I am wide awake and I don’t have that feeling of sleep anymore. I wake up in the morning with my eyes burning, muscles are tired and weak and a pressure headache from the lack of good sleep. I also have these weird vivid dreams throughout the night, but I don’t understand how I am having them when I don’t feel like I slept at all.
My anxiety has increased to the maximum and everyday I have anxiety crisis where I cry and call for help in a desperate way… cause the fact that I’m not sleeping deep anymore is making me go crazy. I feel super anxious, I eat almost nothing and I shake the whole day cause I’m tired\anxious of not being able to sleep again. I am not who I used to be anymore, I don’t go out cause I’m exhausted and I don’t do the things I love cause i feel like slowly dying from this sleep problem. Can anyone tell me what’s wrong with me? I am so scared and fragile.. I wish I could get better and continue to live normally.. i feel like I’m dying…
I am asking for your help and I hope this problem will go away but I’m thinking my brain changed somehow and I’m so traumtised
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